Oh don't feel like your alone, cause trust me your not! I felt like a bottomless pit during my first and second trimesters! Now I can barely eat because I am always full, so I eat smaller, more frequent meals. Now about being scared of baring another life, let me tell you one thing..It won't go away! I am still petrified everyday that I am going to hurt my baby, but you know something, if you set aside those nightmares, bad thoughts and listen to your heart and feel your baby kicking, you will know deep down that you will be a great mother to your child! My mom was telling me the other day that when she was pregnant with me I was the spawn of satin! She said I only slept when she was awake and then at night all I wanted to do was punch and kick her in the ribs and bladder! I laughed but only because cheyenne does the same thing to me. Then my mom told me something that sunk in and made me realize that I was a mom, she said 'like mother, like daughter'. It really doesn't mean a thing until your the mother! Ok maybe I am a little sappy but even when cheyenne kicks me dead on in the ribs and I lose my breath, I thank god that she is kicking, moving and healthy!
Hope this helps!
Good luck and best wishes
-jessika-