Hi, I've suffered from this all my life and don't quite know how to label it - let alone seek treatment for it: I deprive myself of sleep on purpose, avoid any kind of relaxation greater than a day. I feel compelled to physically exert myself everyday. I also cannot stand sitting a a desk indoors for more than a few hours at a time. The reason I behave this is to avoid the crux of my problem: the more rest I get, the more lethargic, groggy & irritable if feel. To me it's a most horrible feeling. I suffer (and my family also) when I'm on vacation. I wish I could just be like everyone else and be able to relax and not feel crappy. Every successive day gets worse to the point to where I must go and work out, do physical labor or other intensive activities. I feel fantastic after a 3-hour work out at the gym. But it only lasts a day before the lethargy and grogginess starts to creep back. I actually envy lazy people - I don't know how they can be sedentary and feel well. I fear retirement or being laid-up for extended periods of time like the plague. Help. What is wrong with me?
History: Male, 45yrs old. I have panic/anxiety/depression disorder(since 16yrs old; grogginess has been with me since I was a small child). I've been treated very successfully with first tricylics and now SSRIs. I take 40mg of Celexa, 25mg of Atenolol, and 150mg of Wellbutrin per day. I also have restless leg syndrome and have tried Requip with little results, so I live with it. I am a very productive entrepreneur and rarely have any P/A/D symptoms anymore. Aside from this life-long groggy issue, life is great. However, if anyone can steer me in a direction that would help me with the subject of this post, I would be very grateful