so i've been really down the last few days
which is to be expected as it is the first
anniversary of my daughters death. i aimed
to keep positive but it's not really
working. i just keep thinking of all i
had- a marriage, soon to be three
children, college and a bright happy
future.
although i have come far and i am really
happy with robbie right now it still
hurts. robbie did a brilliant thing and
suprised me yesterday by booking a weekend
away to paris on 20th september til 24th.
he okayed it with neil first who said
sure.
now yesterday neil rang me up shouting
down the phone at me that i shouldn't of
let robbie 'put him on the spot' about the
holiday and that he has training to do on
the 22nd. he has never once mentioned this
to me and robbie showed me the text where
he said it was fine for us to go away on
those dates.
well even though all that stuff has just
happened to my mum i had to ring her up
and ask if she could watch the kids on the
saturday. she said ok so i rang neil back
to tell him and he started going on about
how he was now cutting into his holiday
time for me!
i started crying and said to him 'how can
you be like this? especialy this day of
all days' he said 'what do you mean?' so
explained' and he went quiet. then said
'it still doesn't change the fact of the
holiday stuff'
i put the phone down on him then cried my
eyes out. he forgot completely that it was
the aniversary. he doesn't give a caca. it
just made everything so much more worse.
