hey buddy! well my name is suzy and let me tell you a little about myself

ive lost a few freinds to suicide now. it hurts really bad to think about them and what they did
i used to cut (not much) in 7th grade
it was stupid
i regret it really bad
things may be bad now but in two years youll look back and be like "what the heck did i get so sad fr?"

if you wanna alk then PM me ok? im on all night long
id love to help
be your freind and whatever else you may need!

ttyl!


-suzy

a few days ago i got in a huge argument with my mom and i got really angry and upset. that night i went up into my room and cried. i called one of my friends. i told her what happened and i told her that i wanted to cut. she didnt know that i used to cut before that night. a few mins later she called me back crying and asked to talk to my mom but i was home alone. so she called my moms cell phone (at that point i didnt know that she even had my moms cell phone number). when my mom got home i was still awake so she came up to talk to me. but i still feel mad and upset and i still feel like i want to cut because high school starts on Tuesday im really stressed out.

yeah

sigh sometime fights with parents can trigger that

just try and relax take a deep breath and stop thinking about life

highschool will be fine i promise i had a great expierience my freshman year! i looved it!

i have had a few bad experiences in school in the past. i have been beat up, called names, and teased. im sick of it!! im sick of people!!! I hate it!!!

I know it's more or less impossible, but don't let them get to you. I was bullied at least seven years (verbally only), and then it suddenly stopped, but it has made me a loner and i have low self steem to this day, although that's many years ago. (except from a few incidences about a year ago).

Do not hurt yourself because of what they say or do to you. Instead try to talk to someone, or get out your frustration at someTHING.

Try the ice cube trick (holding it in your hand) or something else that is painful whilst doing it, but not harmful.

and never give up

wow
i like the ice cube suggestion! you know thats really clever

you should stick around on this forum
we could use more people like you here!

Ill try the ice cube trick. but right now i think i have i problem. the friend that i called i still want to be friends with her but i dont know if her parents want her to hang out with me anymore. and my other friend got in trouble over my house yesterday so she might not be able to come over any more. they r my only real friends now i have nothing.

I'm 33 years old and I used to cut throughout high school, college and even into my mid twenties. I don't know what changed, but seeking help and finding a support system(perhaps here) could help you. Sometimes I still get the urge to hurt myself, I tried getting "professional" help and they were on their own planet, not realizing that every person is different and needs a different approach in treatment. I know how difficult it is to deal with parents or friends who just don't understand. I kept getting the "WHY? WHY? WHY?" question...
The important thing now is to get the help you need. You realize it's a problem and that's always key.... Don't let it turn into something worse like suicide or something that seems less, like becoming an alcoholic but it is just as bad... I'm still working on getting my life together and I've found something that works for *me*. I may be married and have kids, but it's hard to get rid of the cutting mentality because it's how I handled stress throughout high school. But the sooner you can learn how to deal with stress in non harmful ways, the sooner you can get on track.
Also, now that I am an adult, I'm really embarrassed by the some of the scars I have left on my body that will never go away. It's a reminder of the pain I went through, but it's also a sign of my weakness of letting other people get to me, who in the end, disappeared out of my life and never really mattered. I really believe we are all strong and confident in our own settings. For me, I threw myself into studying and learning everything I can about well, everything. Find a distraction for yourself. You don't have to make yourself stand out because of the negativity that surrounds you. It's hard to do, but I made it through and I believe that you can too. Start with the ice cube, or a tray of ice cubes....you'll get there....I'll try to be here for you if you need it...

The-girlfriend: Thanks

Karate: Perhaps you could have a talk with your friends parents? if that doesn't feel too strange

PghMom: yeah, pouring your energy into something else helps many, at least temporarily, and it can help raise your self esteem too

hi and welcome! im glad you realise you have a problem, so you're almost there. the only thing that really helps is talking about your feelings. if you cant talk to anyone close to you, it may be best to talk to a counsellor, because thats what they're there for. professionals can help loads! i hope you find other ways of dealing with your feelings. the ice cube trick is a good one and id definately try this

Right now it seems like everything is going wrong. The kid who i have liked for two years and is the only guy a actually feel comfortable around and who i can talk to openly i asked him to homecoming and i found out the only reason he said yes to coming with me was because he felt bad for me! School is becoming to much and the stress is showing in everything i do! I cant take it anymore! i cant stand it!

You know what, High school sucks. I know that doesn't help you, but I need you to know that you will get through it. I never even had the courage to ask a guy to anything. I never went to any of the high school dances, not even the prom. And I realize now that I missed out on NOTHING. Find something that you like to do. Really try to look inside. I remember when I felt like nothing. Nothing but a black hole within myself. I felt invisible. I started writing and then somehow fell into photography. I never even dated a guy until I was in college. And I realize now it was because of my self loathing that no guy wanted to go out with me. And you know what, your guy said Yes. So what if he is only going because he feels bad for you. Reach down inside yourself and take advantage of the situation. Use this as an opportunity to talk him about anything. Make it light and try to have fun. I can't see why if he didn't at least like you as a friend that would that be a reason to spend money on a dance? Guys can be very misleading. They will openly reject someone they are friends with and make excuses to hide their feelings because they don't want to be rejected themselves. Is there more to this story? If you check this today, keep me posted and maybe we can work through this together. Hang on. High School was the toughest most illogical time of my life, so I can tell you that you will get stronger, but it will be painful here and there. You just have to hang on. If you are thinking about cutting, try writing out your anger or go get those ice cubes!!! I also suggest if you own a camera, grab it and start taking pictures of things in your room, a blade of grass, a leaf. It's distracting and a great way to focus on things that really don't matter, but have a place in our lives.
PghMom

do NOT let high school determine the rest of your life or even stand in the way of you being happy

i dropped out my sophmore year and it was the best decition i ever made
i certainly dont suggest to you dropping out or anything but highschool is a bunch of drama and BS and fake people who wont matter in your life when you leave school! trust me
all those people i thought were friends...ha! i dont even talk to any of them anymore!

they are stuck in their world of gossip and drama and im so over it

i think the one thing that is missing in my life tat i really need is friends. i have one really good friend that goes to karate and school with me and i tell her everything but she is really my only friend. i need more support from other people.

oh trust me

i know how you feel

No

you are NOT

i agree with suzy. you've got a life ahead of you. this can be sorted

Hey Karate,
Remember when someone bullies you or puts you down, it says NOTHING about you and EVERYTHING about them.
Best regards,
Richard Day Gore

MIKE!!! He is cute. he understands me and accepts me as i am. he helps me and gives me advice. he cares about me and cheers me up when im fealing down. he is the only guy that i feel that i can speek openly to. he dosnt judge me. i have only known him for about two months but it feels like ive known him forever. He is a great friend.