Your situation makes me so mad!
Listen... i'm being serious aswell... if u ever feel i am safe enough to give your address to me i will post you blood monitors, tests strips etc.... to you. They are all free to me so it's not a problem.
Well done on your studying, with everything else on your plate you must be worn out.
I had to claim disability as i have no chance of holding down a job. I tried my hardest. I spent a fortune on studying, and i became a beautician but i had to go for blood tests constantly, it just made my health worse and i was so upset as i am such an ambitious person and i spent so much time and money an building my own salon. But the difference is i am better off on what the government in England gives me!!!! They do look after ill people if you qualify.
I try and do home study courses now as i love learning and hate having nothing to do but clean a house!!
My parents have a house in the states... Florida, so i am always there and i love it but the health issue sounds awful.
Regarding the kidney issue theres nothing to do now but take a bucket full of drugs until the time comes for a transplant or dialysis....it's so scary. I am eligible to get a kidney and pancreas transplant. It sounds wonderful.... no more diabetes, but the problem is theres less chance of the transplants working than if you just have a kidney and its on the scale of having a heart transplant because it's a very complicated procedure. They have told me that in the first year there is a 1 in 10 chance of dying!!! So i'm having to weigh up the pros and cons.
I know if someone gave me a gun with ten bullets in and one would kill me i wouldn't risk firing it but i get every problem with diabetes so i know my futures bleak without the transplant.... so i don't know what to do!
I don't think you should be thinking the way you do about giving a child diabetes. It doesn't happen often and it's certainly not your fault...... But i completely understand about bringing anyone into the life we have. Also you have to consider the finance which is a terrible situation!
What insulin are you only the way?
I've added you to my contacts so if theres a private issue you want to talk about we can do it though private messaging..not sure because i am new to this!
Look forward to hearing from you.
Laura
P.S I am on the computer all differnt times but mainly 9.p.m my time onwards so that would be 4.p.m your time i think??