i just found out i was pregnant Wednesday.
Clinic saw me on Thursday, confirmed i am pregnant, 9wks5days.
Abortion scheduled for Tuesday 7:30am.
as you can see, this has all happened very fast. we were very surprised considering we use protection and try to time it so that we dont have sex around my ovulation days. i cant take hormonal birth control because i am on lamcital, and i cant afford the non-hormonal options which arent offered at my local health clinic for free. Unfortunately safe sex failed, and i apparently ovulate the day after i am done with my period.
a little about myself:
*i already have 1 child (3yrs old). i was induced for her birth, in labor for 12 hours, stalled at 4cm, had C-section.
*i am 28yrs, single mom. my child & i live with my parents (who do not know about this nor that i am seeing the father whom they despise). i am currently unemployed, looking for a job, desperately trying to get on my feet, and obviously unable to have another child due to my financial situation. the father is unable to have a child right now as well because of his own legitimate situational reasons which i wont get into. bringing another child into this world would be very foolish and unfair to the baby as well as everyone involved.
*i was adamantly pro-choice prior to this, therefore able to make this decision quickly without being too emotionally torn and able to quickly accept that it was the best decision given my current situation. (although i do admit, i wish we could keep it and wish that the circumstances were different.)
i have a few questions/concerns that i need answered ASAP so that i can be prepared:
1. i was diagnosed bipolar earlier this year, so my medication is still kind of in the trial & error stage and i dont think i've been seen long enough to know how i'm going to respond to an abortion.
should i let my physician know immediately? or just wait and see? anyone bipolar or experienced in this field that can advise me?
1a. i've had post-op depression in the past.
is this indicative of how i will respond to the abortion?
2. i will be given a nerve block (local anesthesia) but nothing else for the procedure. i've been told that i will feel 'pressure'; but not 'pain' because they said that the procedure is more emotional than painful.
what do you guys have to say about that? (dont worry, you wont scare me so go ahead and be honest.)
2a. i've had a C-section, breast implants, & lipo in the past; all of which were a walk in the park for me. i did not consider them painful at all. during labor, my strongest contractions only felt like period cramps to me, that was it. so i gather that i have a high threshold for pain.
can the same be expected for the abortion?
3. i will be prescribed Loratabs for pain after the Sx,
do you think this will be sufficient?
3a. i have valium & xanax that i can take beforehand (or afterward, not sure when would be most beneficial).
would you recommend that i take 1 of these and when? *my doctor's assistant said it was okay to take whatever i wanted but i thought i'd better get some opinions first.
okay i think i covered everything for now. i really appreciate this forum being here. god bless all of the supportive & educated members who are dedicated to it.
p.s. - pro-lifers need not waste your time responding here. your arguements are tired & ludicrous; and your efforts are futile as far as i'm concerned. i do not have the patience nor the time to respond to you thus anything you have to say will be ignored. like my name says - i think 4 myself and i stand by what i believe is right.