Joined: 11 Nov 2005 Posts: 5261 Location: Treat your children well, eventually they'll choose your nursing home.
Lonely Posted: 08-24-07 01:22am
I'm so lonely tonight. Dh and I were
doing quite well for a while but now it's
back to something not being quite right.
I feel so lonely, like he has no idea who
I am and I have no idea who he is. I'm
not even sure if I like him... Not saying
that I don't. I just feel like he's a
stranger right now, or better yet just
someone that I'm rooming with. I feel
like I'm being excluded from his life. I
just want to cry because I feel so
isolated, like we're moving around each
other and can see each other but we're in
two different worlds. I don't know if we
can fix it and I don't know if either one
of us is even willing to try. I'm just so
tired of feeling like I'm alone. I
thought when we got married that it was so
we wouldn't be alone (not the reason we
married but I definitely saw it as an
added benefit). The funny thing is that I
never felt this alone when I was alone.
I'm feeling very moody right now and like
I'm on the verge of doing something
disastrous just so I can feel like I'm
alive and that I belong to someone again.
Like I am the most important thing in
someone's life. Unfortunately, I have too
many morals to run out and cheat...I hate
that about myself sometimes... God, I
wish there was an instant solution to
things like this... Sorry for the long
ramble. I guess I'm done now. I thought
I'd feel better but I still feel lonely.
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Rosie H
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Joined: 11 Jun 2007 Posts: 1160 Location: Phoenix, AZ, USA
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Posted: 08-27-07 09:57am
I know it it so much harder than it
sounds, but maybe you should tell him what
you just posted. He needs to know how you
are feeling, even if it hurts to say it.
Being honest is the best thing and maybe
he has not idea how you are really
feeling, maybe if you told him about it he
would try harder. Or maybe he feels the
same way, you never know.
But talking about it with him will
probably be the only way to overcome this.
I hope you feel better, I know how you
feel.
I love my guy to death be I get into the
funk a lot. Usually just telling him
about it helps.
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wazzywoman4ever
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Aug 2007 Posts: 67 Location: texas, america
I Could of Written That Posted: 09-22-07 07:46am
Maybe not for all the same reasons but
seriously been there lived that ...what
will work is this site and finding out you
are not the only one out there with this
problem .journaling , write him like you
write us he may not have a clue and be as
lost and lonely as you are or be
struggling with god only knows what but
one thing is for sure if he is no mind
reader things won't change ..perhaps a
long letter or print your post ...love
will find a way if its meant to be love
will find a way ....just know you are not
alone and this is a fruff patch and things
can change for the better for worse they
can change and then you have a new day
with different challenges adventures
.....your never alone that is for sure
....so many people care you reached out
here ...reach out at home too ....you can
do this ...better days for you
............we are here for you .....you
deserve to be happy and to be loved
.........communication try that first
....best wishes
wazzywoman /robin
