i was wondering if someone could answer this and maybe tell me what exactly is wrong with my head cause i know theres something. im 18 years old ive been smokin weed pretty much every day for about 4 yrs taken various other drugs in the past pills, speed, coke and acid although ive stopped now. i think theres one person a cuzin i have with schizophrenia not sure tho, i have strange view of people and how they look and think about me, sometimes im so paranoid that i cant leave my room or lay on my bed because i think something is gonna jump out or somebodys gonna run thru the door to stab me in the back if i dont face face the door. sometime if im in a dark place ill make my own shapes out of the faint outlines which sometime turn into ghoulish outlines of faces or people in the distance, i also have bizarre thoughts on time and religion, and some particulr ones that could only be described as delusions of the granduer. i soemtimes think that i am smarter then people and then i get biazzare thoughts about there motives to be my friends enimies watever, my thoughts jump from one another sometimes i get stuck on a subject for 15 minutes and ill rant on over the top of people or sometimes sit just quietly but the strangest thing is that it all seems so normal to me kinda making me feel liek im the only person like i am if you know what i mean but im not? so could someone please tell me what could be wrong with me


id like to point out im not encouraging drug use of any sort