Joined: 03 Jul 2007 Posts: 49 Location: san francisco!, california
I'm a Daughter. Semi-therefather. Lost Mom. Stress Crushing Posted: 08-22-07 01:30am
well basically school is about to start.
i need "back to school" stuff.
school supplies. jeans. shoes.
i've been recently abandoned by my mother.
kicked me to my father's who i haven't
really known and has another fam. he's
really strict and asian... and spoils his
other two kids that he has with his new
wife.
let's just say i get the shittiest room in
the house.. and i don't get a lot ...
compared to the other kids... *cough*
it's hard to watch when you see your
stepmom blowin a couple of Gs and when you
need a hair cut your dad says he's empty
pocketed and i gotta wait a couple of
months..
i don't get make up, hair did, shopping, i
don't get to go buy tampons and hair spray
and i don't even get to go out ...whenever
i look remotely like a girl, my dad freaks
out. he starts saying insane things,
looking at me like i'm a prositute... i'm
always stuck wearing baggy clothes and
pulling my hair up... and no make up no
accessories... i don't even feel like a
girl..
well let's cut to the chase.
i need back to school stuff and can't seem
to ask him. he doesn't even provide the
little things. i honestly don't need the
stress right after my mom and i made
contact after 2 weeks ( she hasn't hung
out with me in 7 months, before that we
haven't talked in a year.)
who had made an extended invitation to
"hang out" with her.. which translates to
hanging out with her prick boyfriend's
little bro because he just came to US to
visit and has no friends. she just uses
me.
she never even calls to check up.. or
make sure i'm doing ok living with my
father. she never stands up for me. always
saying harsh things. she didn't even care
that i didn't want to accept it.
this is too much stress for a 16 year old.
i can't handle losing my mother and then
dealing with someone whose suppose to be
my father then dealing with the sneeky
devil siblings and my insane psychotic
mental-facility needed step mom.
how can i start anothe r year of high
school with this stress... takin up extra
classes on the weekends at the college to
catch up... i can't even ask my own father
for things i need.. he's so insensitive to
me beign a kid and is soo pressurign on
education and focused on it that he says
hurtful things like he doesn't give a damn
how i feel.. that i need no friends.. or
outside contact.. just my book.. HELL, i
dont even got a family.
i'm gonna break soon.
i can't find the courage to stand up to
him.. i can't understand why i'm so
afraid..
help.
PLEASE...
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andrewcorbin20
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Dec 2007 Posts: 24 Location: Charlottesville, VA USA
Posted: 12-12-07 18:22pm
Just try to think of happy things. Like,
the day when you graduate, and can get out
of this mess on your own. Yep, I know it's
hard. You are too young to be going
through this junk. Life is life though,
you have to deal with the hand your given.
I'd say relax, and make the best out of
it. Though I am sorry that you can't even
get your basic needs, or the fact you
can't even make yourself look/feel
beautiful. Your picture proves that your
beautiful though!
There's probably nothing you could do or
say to him to make him realize what he's
doing. He's stuck in a fantasy with this
wife, and 2 OTHER kids. He's just pushing
you aside like something extra, they he'll
grab up one day, and realize that he
actually NEEDED it. I really hope things
can work out for you, you deserve to be
happy, and joyful. Please, just hang on,
and don't do anything dumb. Lots of HUGS!
-Andrew
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pronetoillness
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 03 Jul 2007 Posts: 49 Location: san francisco!, california
Posted: 01-09-08 02:20am
andrewcorbin20
wrote:
Just try to think of happy
things. Like, the day when you graduate,
and can get out of this mess on your own.
Yep, I know it's hard. You are too young
to be going through this junk. Life is
life though, you have to deal with the
hand your given. I'd say relax, and make
the best out of it. Though I am sorry that
you can't even get your basic needs, or
the fact you can't even make yourself
look/feel beautiful. Your picture proves
that your beautiful though!
There's probably nothing you could do or
say to him to make him realize what he's
doing. He's stuck in a fantasy with this
wife, and 2 OTHER kids. He's just pushing
you aside like something extra, they he'll
grab up one day, and realize that he
actually NEEDED it. I really hope things
can work out for you, you deserve to be
happy, and joyful. Please, just hang on,
and don't do anything dumb. Lots of HUGS!
-Andrew
thanks so much; you're very kind. i wish
to write more and get more advice but it's
late now and i got work. so i'll try my
best to hit you up later.
thank you.
