ever since i was young, i always was an over-worrier, thinking i was gonna die when i had little dumb sicknesses or even having a little booboo. I always carried a bottle of water around with me because sometimes i found it so difficult to swallow. When i'd be in class at school, if i felt like i had to cough i would hold it in till i was literally choking having to run out of the class because i feared coughing while the whole class was quiet. When it came to walking back into the room my heart would race and i'd swear the whole classrooms eyes would be on me. Years later im still the same. When i get nervous, in stressful sitatuions or social settings i begin to not beable to catch my breath, i even get in bad moods and snap at my girlfriend and take out my nervousness in that sitatuion on her. I also get in bad moods and take it out on my gf and i dont understand why. Sometimes i find it hard to swallow, and when i try to is like the spit wont go down, and i nearly choke. I've always had a phobia of throw up. If i see someone or hear someone throwing up i panic. I even cry sometimes because it freaks me out that bad. I worry myself sick thinking of myself throwing up because i rarely do. i only have like 3 times my whole life. I also worry myself sick over thinking death. I always think death is coming my way and that im going to get a deadly disease and suffer. I never consulted a doctor or told my parents because i refuse to have to take meds. But from reading about anxiety on here, to me it kinda sounds like thats my problem. What do you guys think? this is taking over my life, i envy the kids i see who are living 'normal' lives and always happy and care free. I dont wanna be this way anymore. what can i do?