ok let me start at the beginning. this first part may not hold relevence but i want to put it just in case. this is a pretty lengthy wall of text, so bare with me.

i am going into my third year of college. i start a new college in a week and a half. all throughout middle school and on i have had a very tight knit group of friends. during the second year of college, these friends started to take their college work less serious and began working full-time jobs and going to concerts. they developed a fat wallet but their grades started to decline rapidly. they also began to act wilder. i began acting the complete opposite. i spend most of my time studying and all. eventually, they excluded me from the "group". so i went through my last semester of my second year alone pretty much. i have been on summer break for almost 4 months now. in this four months i have spent 90% of it in my room in front of my pc with a lot of free time. for the last month i have been suffering from something that i dont know what it is. i keep wondering if i have some disease or something that will lead to me going to the hospital. i used to have a very vivid imagination. i do a lot of graphic design. but for the last 30% of my summer break, my motivation has vanished. whenever i try to think about future design projects and all, i feel like there is a cloud over my thoughts. i also feel the urge to just scream and go running several miles. i feel like the room is closing in on me. i also can't help but to think of random people (actors, people i know, etc) and wonder what they are doing at that very moment. i think all this has sparked some physical symptoms. i noticed my torso gets a lot of cramps. i eat healthy though. also, i can't keep thinking about my breathing. its always on my mind and its driving me insane. sometimes i forget about it, then i feel relieved that i forgot about breathing, and then that makes me start paying attention to it again. i actually forgot about my breathing throughout this post until i got to the end here . im thinking all this is because ive been in my room all summer without any interaction with anyone except a few relatives. i just want some opinions. i guess staring at the same 4 walls all day will make anyone go a little batty. i am feeling a little better after typing this and knowing someone might read it.