I'm new here, and I need help, and since I don't really fit into any "traditional" topical category, I feel like some of you on this forum might be able to answer my questions.

Just a little information and background on me....

I'm 37, no kids, no pregnancies, two laps for Endo (1999 and 2001). both times the Dr. gave me the option of removing my right ovary. I chose not to do so, as I was still undecided as to whether or not I would have children eventually. A little over a year ago, the Endometriosis started giving me problems again, and in March 2006 yet ANOTHER Dr. suggested that maybe it was time for a Hysterectomy. By then, I was about 99% certain I wasn't going to have children, and I was okay with that.

So now, why I am posting....

With ALL of my Endometriosis problems, and multiple doctors telling me that it would be "extremely difficult" for me to become pregnant without additional treatment, and of course my "advancing age" , I was/am CONVINCED I could not/cannot get pregnant. Here's the thing: My period is almost 2 weeks late, and even through all my years of Endo problems, I was always regular, almost down to the hour, and I never took any type of birth control pills. Additionally, I'm incredibly nauseated for the first half of the day, my back is killing me, by breasts are horribly sore, I'm bloated/gassy/constipated, and my mood swings are severe.

Could I be pregnant or......

Could I be entering Perimenopause? It seems like the symptoms are all the same. I looked for a "Pregnancy over 35" forum, but didn't see one here. Maybe I missed it.

I know what you're all thinking...."Why don't you just take a hpt and get the wondering over with?" Does it make me a bad person if I say that I honestly don't know how I would take the news if the test was positive? Of course I would have the baby, that would be the only option for me, but it's not something that I expected or imagined for my future. Heck, it took me 37 years to find the most wonderful man in the world....It really seems too overwhelming to think I could actually be pregnant at a time when so many of my friends kids are entering middle school!

This is me in a nutshell....

My two best friends from high school were pregnant with their first kids when we were all 26. I was single and felt left out, so I got a dog. The first few years were VERY STRESSFUL, but I'm happy to say that I've managed to keep her alive for 11 happy years. However, I will also add that I know for a fact that being a single "dog mom" was directly responsible for the destruction of my biological time clock. Having a near-nervous breakdown in the middle of the night when my dog started having a seizure (and rushing her to the emergency vet) was a pretty good indicator that I didn't need to be the mom of human children.