hi emma and welcome!!!!!!!!!

feel free to PM me anytime
im on alot so ill be glad to talk to ya about what you are going through

-suzy

Heyass Suzy, thankies soooooooooo muchoo! just PM'ed yoo. =]

hiya my name is rose, welcome to the forum, feel free to pm me whenever you like, im generally on here anyway

Coolio thankies muchooo Rose.

Welcomet o the forum, I am diane, i am a moderator on this forum, i also have experience in this subject as i have suffered from an eating disorder for 5 years. Right now im in recovery, i cant say im recovered at all yet cuz the thoughts are always still there. You can feel free to PM me anytime, generally u can say what you want here, just no posting body statistics like height and weight etc or measurments. no tips on how to purge or starve etc, no talk of what diet pills work best etc, there is a topic at the top of the forum on the posting guidelines as well to be sure you dont post something triggering. We are all here to help and support eachother.

In the last couple of days, i'm getting worse, like in the morning wen i wake up til 5 / 6pm at nite i starve myself then i have one bowl of vegatables ( peas, sweetcorn, carrots ) then an hour later i have a fruit salad ( apple, banana and grapes ) but then i find myself throwing chunks of the apple away. then an hr later i mite have a mars bar. LOL! but i haven't lately. i really want to eat but i know i just can't. Wen i know i have a shopping trip coming up i have to strave myself like this cz then i can fit into skinny jeans. its madness, i only eat them foods cz i feel safe with them. I know i'm not getting my protein, carbs...etc.. but i just don't want to get fat. but still i dont feel like i've lost anything. Like i'm always asking my mum if i can go to the gym but she never books it in soooooo thats why i've had to go down this road. I can't phone thm and book it cz i have like sociel prblems ( but i am on some sort of program for that...tis private and embarsing AHEM ) LOL! i think most of it is muscle, but tis hard to know wat is muscle and wat is fat, i desperately wan to get rid of a bit of the muscle too but i probs cant do that, all i can do is build it up.....i dunooo....

Sorry for rambling on eeeeeeeeeeeekk!
(we dont post weights on here, it can trigger people in recovery)

HELP!!!!!!!!