First off do not take IPECAC! That is dangerous, its only meant for emergency purposes and can cause great harm. And I suggest you seek help, depending on your weight etc they may want to hospitalize you, Find a psychologist in your area and make an appt to see them to get some help. ALl of this is dangerous to your health. As long as you are at a stable weight they will help you and not hospitalize you, the psychologist may consider going inpatient etc it just depends on your health, the sooner you get help the better, so talk to you fiance about seeking help so you can get on the road to recovering, because you do have an eating disorder, also if u get help u need to let them know about the cutting as well, and you may also be depressed the psychologist can determine that and set you up witha psychiatrist to get medication to help if they feel its neccesary. Good Luck with whatever you choose.
Diane

Thank you for the info and the support, but I am afraid to say anything. The way my family is (especially my siblings), they would think I am only trying to get attention. I do not like getting attention. I try to avoid that! But I will take the advice. I already have an appt with my dr next week.
I will try to talk to him then.
Thank you again. Is this a good place to come when life is getting overwhelming?

Georgi

yeah, there are a great group of girls here to help out. My family was the exact same way they were aware i had a problem but actually waited until i came them for help otherwise if you arent willing to recover then it wont work. Definately talk to ur dr about it, they may want to take your blood as well to check your vitamin levels etc if they think you are really unhealthy thats another thing i forgot to add. So getting help doesnt always mean going inpatient at a treatment facility it just depends on your health at that time. But definately start seeing a psychologist etc. I saw one for a little over a year on a weekly basis, i was threatened with inpatient if my weight dropped anymore but it didnt. Do you still live with your family? They might already be aware you have aproblem by now, so bring up to them youve decided on getting help to get your life back on track etc, im sure they will all be very proud of you for making such a huge life changing decision. We are all here if you ever need to talk , you can also PM people, if u click on there user name and click PM to send a private message. that way it wont be on the public forum if theres some things u dont like people reading etc. but we are here and Good Luck!
Diane

My fiance and I have moved into our own home about 2 months ago. I think the stress of all of that triggered alot of things that are becoming overwhelming. Does that make sense? Oh, well.

I am glad that I have somewhere to come and talk when I need to. I talk to my fiance all the time, but I think it worries him when I get too emotional and I don't want him to go to work and have to worry about me at the same time. Do you know what I mean?

Georgi

yeah i get what you mean, its good your out on your own finally. But you need to get your health straightened out as well im sure it worries your fiance alot as well. And i think he will be really supportive if you decide to get help and help you find somewhere etc. sometimes in therapy at the psychologists they like to bring in your significant other as well to get there insight on it all as well, I wasnt married at the time i was 18 and had a bf and my therapist wanted him to come to some sessions.

im very depressed about my weight some days i feel like i want to die and others i just want to block out the world and be alone in the world where there was no bullies to call me names and beat me up!!the bullin got even worse a while back and i started cutting myself i felt such releif doing it!i know its wrong but i cant stop!! plz help me i cant deal wit it any more!!!

"I also have been sleeping all day or I would stay up for days at a time. Some people have told me I am depressed. Could this be the problem? I used to cut myself, and have started again when things started to get overwhelming. I think the stress is starting to hurt me."

Dieting,depression and purging lead to the binges.Because you do not have a particular nutrition plan,you either overeat or undereat and your emotional state is out of order...

"I do binge then take a few laxatives (maxium strength) after I do eat. "

Laxatives do not help you lose weight,they only make you feel "lighter" but in reality they disturb your body fluid balance and this can have serious complications...

"I feel ashamed and stupid for posting this, but I am at the very end of my rope. So, do I need help? Can someone help me?"

There is nothing to feel ashamed about-we all have ups and downs sometimes.Write a message to me and we will sort something out.

"My fiance has noticed my behavior and is very concerned and I do not want to go to the hospital. I already spend enough time there. (I am a diabetic) Please help!"

If you are diabetic skipping meals has a VERY serious consequence and may lead to death,so you are in a serious need of nourishing your body and putting yourself together in terms of psychological well-being.