Stupid af decided that she was going to arrive right in the middle of a big meeting today. I felt sick all day and had bad stomach pains all over not just in my lower abdomen. I took some tylenol and i feel much better, but I am starting to get really upset about it.

My temp was still kinda up this morning, at least above the coverline. I took a test yesterday morning and was negative. I keep seeing all the girls little ones on the other forums and I start to cry, because I want a baby so baddly. I don't know if I am really that upset, or if I am still kinda emotional from my friends death.

I know that I shouldn't be that upset, it is only the first month that we tried again, and with going through what we have gone through this past week and a half, its no wonder. I didn't temp or take my prenatals the whole time I was gone (about a week). I guess I will just have to try next time. We are going to be in Maine next time I ovulate, so hopefully while I am on vacation I will get a second chance.

Does anyone believe in that saying "with death brings new life"? I am hoping that my friend is up there pleading my case for me. He knew how much we want a baby and he was always asking when the little one was coming.