I have just graduated high school and am
going into college. I appear to be a
perfectly normal teenager but I know I'm
not. I feel as though I'm missing out on
all the joy life contains and some of the
good times of being a teenager. Most of
the peers around me seem to have perfectly
normal, happy lives and I yearn for that.
Of course, a normal teenager has a ton of
problems but most can at least experience
happiness. I feel constantly down and
apathetic about everything and I have for
a long time. Nothing gives me joy and the
days just combine into a mundane sludge. I
try to stay positive and active but it
doesn't work. I even get 8 hours of sleep
each night. I have also been on 7
anti-depressants. I feel hopeless. This
has been a long, ongoing struggle and I
feel as though I am missing out on
everything. I've become constantly anxious
and my heart beats about 20 paces over
normal. I don't know what to do. People
have stopped hanging around me because of
my downcast attitude but I don't know how
to change it. I have few friends left and
I don't even know how to make new ones. My
depression/anxiety has killed my ability
to connect with peers or act myself. I
have an extremely hard time talking to new
people, especially the opposite gender. No
girl wants to talk to a depressed guy.
I've also been smoking more and more
cigarettes. Help?
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cantwakeup
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 07 Aug 2007 Posts: 3 Location: ,
Posted: 08-07-07 04:54am
I dont claim to have any answers, but will
give some advice.
Find whats missing and pursue it at all
costs.
I am 29 yrs old and I've known what I was
missing since I was your age.
Unfortunately, I pursued things like
girls, good times, and drugs because they
provided the more immediate fix.
I wanted and still want life, culture,
beautiful achitecture...things that do not
exist in midwestern united states. I am
miserable here, but cannot leave due to
the poor choices I made from the ages of
19-21.
My advice is to stay off presciption ad's
and take some time to really, really think
about what it is you want.
What are you going to college for? Is it
what you want?
A major life change may help your
depression and smoking.
If I could be 19 again, I would like to
travel the world...I hope its not too late
for me.
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Blue Sky Sprite
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Aug 2007 Posts: 15 Location: ,
Posted: 08-11-07 23:29pm
what worries me is that what we beleive we
want at this fragile age is not going to
be what we eanted in the end...
Im sick of people saying "what matters
is..."
nothing matters
Its all just life....then its not...the
end.
So medical question the princaple...dig
inside your soul
this is you...find out about yourself and
the way you work
Dont neglect the feelings...allow the mind
to draw natural but progressive
conclusions
and then move on
but still, can post-modern electronic
music with improvisational acoustic
instruments really be my calling? I aint
even great on piano
I just have a slightly musical touch,
probably hinting at the greats such as
Miles Davis....
but what I do have is my own insight
we all have that, right? if we can find
it
We all know everything we need to from day
one...thats waht i beleive
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Quincybug09
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Aug 2007 Posts: 41 Location: Birmingham, AL United States
Re: Lost & Apatheic Posted: 08-15-07 15:07pm
Do you have any hobbies? Learning
something new makes me feel better. Right
now I am trying to learn to play the
acoustic guitar. It is something I have
wanted to do for a long time. Is there
anything that you have always wanted to
do? Give it a try. You may discover new
and interesting things about yourself.
And, you might wind up being really good
at it! (I know that wont be the case for
me and the guitar though. But it is gonna
be fun trying.)
