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Q: Am I Really Bi Polar ?

asked by: carchickz31 on August 2nd, 2007

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Hi There

I have been diagnoised as Bi Polar recently because my partner noticed we wernt getting along the best and thought i was too emotianal. Granted I had started to cut myself (not for pain... for sum reason I just wanted to see blood go from me to the shower drain)...

But the reason I'm wondering if im Bi Polar is because before this partner no one else had mentioned anything... And I cut myself a few times becaues he had told me that years ago he had cut himself... so i guess i was just curious...

Im not sure if I have Bi Polar or this current partner makes me feel bad and depressed about myself...

Its really stupid but if Im in a bad mood he does nothing to help... If he is creating the bad mood (eg there has been a miscommunication and i get upset he wont correct the miscommunication... he will let me get upset and later on push it in my face that there was no reason to be upset as somewhere along the lines i had got it wrong... he doesnt just let me know there has been a mistake.) Instead he feels its necessary to 'teach me'...

Argh its all confusing.... and im not explaining myself well...

I guess if i think about it I am Bi Polar... It does run in the family... My two brothers have gone through hell and Im meant to be the good child who doesnt have anything wrong... my mum says i have PMS not Bi Polar... She says she has seen nothing to back up me being Bi Polar...

When I went to see my Doctor Im not sure if I said what he wanted to hear or if i told the truth... Its kinda hard to say... But he gave me some medication and the next day I was 'perfect'. I think this is cause my partner laid off a bit because in his mind i was no longer a threat as i was medicated... though can medication really have an effect after one day??

I read the symptoms of Bi Polar and i guess i can relate to most of them... but it is really difficult to accept. and its not made easier when my partner blames all my bad moods or diffrence of opinon on me being bi polar... makes me feel like pooh... he says im lazy and dont do anything... and then he asks if i have taken my meds... and if i say yes he just looks at me like he doesnt believe me.... its really very frustrating...

I just dont know if i like the label of Bi Polar... I dont like the idea of me being myeslf is blamed on me taking or not taking my meds...

Its really hard to accept.. Sad

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carchickz31

replied on August 3rd, 2007

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Just wondering if anyone else is taking Lexapro??? This is what the Doctor gave me to take once a day...

I have a question... Is it really worth seeing a Phsyc about being Bi Polar or should i just take my meds and be done with it??

The doctor gave me a six month script for the medication and im yet to make an appointment to see a Phsyc as i dont feel it will do anything... I dont see a reason as there is nothing that as made me Bi Polar... I havnt had any special circumstances in my life that has made me feel depressed or overley happy (and yet thats what happens)... so what could seeing a Phsyc do to help other then say 'yes you do have Bi Polar so keep taking your meds'?

As far as i can see its just been passed down the gene pool to me...

Please let me know your experiences and if they really do help

Cheers

backpain_nc

replied on August 3rd, 2007

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Testing

carchick,
Bipolar disorder is diagnosed through a series of tests. Not blood work but mood tests. No one can look at you and say you know your bipolar here take these. As for taking lexapro no I have never taken it. I take lithium 1200mg synthroid 50mg and seroquel 300mg. It seems to me that you may be being treated for drepression. There are several different types of bipolar disorder bp1 bp2 and so on. You may want to see someone who specializes in mental disorders just to make sure you are not bipolar. Seeing as your siblings are dealing with the illness. As for your b/f he may not be healthy for your mind.

icemunk

replied on August 16th, 2007

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to tell you the truth, I think we're all just a bunch of drug addicts that want to find the perfect combination of meds to make us feel the same all the time. No matter who you are, you are going to experience mood swings. And if you want yourself to be bi-polar, well then the mind is a pretty strong device and you will soon convince yourself you have it after going through a list of symptoms.. I'm on a nice little meal of meds myself and I seem to change them on occasion hoping that this new cocktail of medicine will "cure" me of myself, but I am beginning to realize that it all about peception. I realize that if we label ourselves as "bi polar" or "depressed" or whatnot, we are just giving our minds an excuse to continue to reinforce this mindset, the drugs tend to confuse our perceptions in certain ways and then trick us into convincing ourselves that we are feeling better.. I could go on but most folks won't even read this

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