I'm really not sure where to put this, but i'm going to try here cause it has to do with addiction. It's not my addiction, but my mothers, and it's affected my life since i could walk. Even more so since i have been on my own, and made my own money. My mother has a SERIOUS, ( and that's putting it lightly) gambling problem. I remember so many times while growing up her blowing her whole paycheck, and us almost getting kicked out of our home(s). But it has never stopped, and only got worse. My credit is ruined because i have bailed her ass our so many times. I don't know how many times i have payed her bills, bought her smokes, gas, you name it. Just so she could get by until next payday. She makes more money than ME, and she can't get by. But i've come to the point where i can't handle it anymore, and i don't know what to do. I DON'T want to pay anymore of her bills, or write anymore payday check to these stupid loan sharks. I bet she owes her life to all these places. That's why she has to use me is because she has no where else to go. I've even had to make the payment cause it's under my name, and she didn't have the money.

SHe called me tonight saying she is behind on her electric bill, and it's going to be shut off tomorrow if she doesn't pay it. It's 150$ She wants me to write a check to one of the new payday loan places. I just want this to END!!!!!!!!! I don;t want to do any more loans, i don't want to pay anymore bills!!!!!!!!!! I have two right now that i can't do nothing about. THye are already done, and i can't take it back. But i don't want to do it again. I know everyone says just say no. But i'm scared that she will get mad, and not pay on those that are currently out there, and i will be stuck with an extra 200$ ever two weeks! I don't have that. I just can't take it anymore. And when she doesn't get her own way she won't talk to me. We have gone 6 months with out speaking. And being 5 months pregnant i can't take the stress. I just don't know what to do???????