Depression

hun
you are seriously not a waste of my time lol
i have all the time in the world to talk if you need to

and i wouldnt go to a hospital either
they will just try to drug you and blame you for this and make you feel like a crazy person

i have that feeling again i dont want to cut but its hard not to i want to stop

you want to stop cutting?
ok heres something i have for you

my friend janine used to cut really bad in seventh grade because she was depressed
she wanted help but she didnt know what to do
well counselors and stuff didnt help and no matter what we told her she wouldnt stop
well, finally after it got so bad she would bleed everywhere and she was so scared so she stopped
she didnt cut for 6 months
well
after summer of 7th grade janines mom died in a car accident
and left janine and her sister alone with nobody

janine got depressed again and started cutting
9th grade year janine called my freind katie and me asking for help
we told her we would come over to her aunts who she was living with and stay with her and we could all talk

she had cut herself so bad that she had cut a vein in her wrist and died that night before we got to her house.
she left her little 8 yr old sister ll alone
mom died and the her big sister

i miss janine and i wish i could have helped
she was in the band at school.
she was a great friend

please consider what you are doing
you dont wanna end up hurting yourself like janine did
i know she didnt mean to kill herself

*sigh*
please think about it kid
please

im sorry that that happened to you but i dont cut around my wrist i cut my upper arm and if i did happen to cut myself that bad that i would die who cares no one cares about me i could die and no ones lives would change no one cares about me

Dude, I feel the same exact f**king way as you. I've thought about like if I died who would come to my funeral and who could care. I couldn't come up with a ton of people, but there were SOME people. There are SOME PEOPLE that care about you out there. Don't do something you might regret later.

actually no one cares for me no one not my parents or brother or sister not even my friends no cares for me the only reason i stay alive is because it would jst cause people more trouble and money

and i have thought of suicide i even tried it once i was 12 i swallowed a bottle of painkillers but i didnt die i just kept throwing up that was the first time i actually tried once i thought of drowning myself in my pool or cutting myself to death but that was the first time i tried i feel so alone in this world

dude i feel the same way.... for f**cks sakes i dont know whats keeps me going but something does. i hope life gets better for u. i'm PRAYING college is better than highschool because i'm going into my senior year and i only have 1 more year of this bull. keep fighting man you have a whole life to live

you say i have a whole life to live but im not sure i want to live it it seems everyday my life gets worse and worse i just dont see how it can get better

i care about yall

*sigh*

please dont hurt yourself guys

im sorry if im making you sad i dont know its just that i think it would be easier if i could talk to someone who knows what im going through i know i sound difficult and you probably think whats the point of talking to me if im not going to listen i have been listening its just that its hard to understand i would like someone who knows what im going through then it would be easier im sorry for wasting your time

hun, we have all said we know where you're coming from..
i've never cut but i've felt the same way...
and KNB89 has repeatedly said he feels the same way...

we've been there...
we're giving you the best advice we possibly can

Hey thereâ?¦ Iâ??m so happy to be able to contact youâ?¦ I respect the fact that you are doing something about your depression by asking for helpâ?¦ I believe that you are also going to realize how important it was for you to ask for help. I did not send this message to you just to tell you how much sympathy I have for you. Iâ??ve sent this message to expose the truth about depression with you. What â??theyâ?? arenâ??t telling you is that there is a reason behind every chemical in-balance. The drug companies make tons of money from selling their drugs to people with problemsâ?¦If the problems were figured out, the drug companies would not be able to sell their drugs anymore, so theyâ??ve suppressed the truth about each problem so that they can keep their profit margins high. For example, on the advertisements for Advil or Tylenol, they tell you that when you get a headache you need to pop a pillâ?¦ the truth is that you really just need some water or B vitaminsâ?¦ when your brain cells get dehydrated you get a headache.. Your brain doesnâ??t ache because of an Advil deficiency right! Itâ??s aching because it is telling you that something is wrong and it needs to be fixedâ?¦ All prescription and non-prescription pills just mask upâ?¦ cover up the symptoms of each problemâ?¦they donâ??t actually fix anythingâ?¦
The point is that anti-depressants only mask up the symptoms of depressionâ?¦ the symptom is a chemical in-balance in the brainâ?¦ Are you ready to hear about the real cause of 75% of depression? â?¦.
Negative emotional retentionâ?¦ the cause is an energy blockage in the energy system.
The energy system is what processes emotionsâ?¦. When positive emotions are taken in, it nourishes you and makes you happy, but when negative emotions come in and arenâ??t processed properly they get stuck in the energy veins as negative energy. This causes you to experience the negative emotions over and over and over, until they are released. Positive emotions cause serotonin (chemical balance) and negative emotions cause a lack of serotonin (in-balance)
For example: If you go through a sad time and donâ??t work it out, those emotions will be stuck in the energy system and you will feel sad constantly (depression). Or if you are very angry for a long time about something and donâ??t talk it out with family or punch something those emotions will also be stuck and you will have a very short fuseâ?¦
I donâ??t know if youâ??ve read my TOPIC on the depression forum but Iâ??ve shared my experience with severe depression and anxiety. That is how I came to the truth about this. I got depression and extreme anxiety within a span of a couple of months ... I just slipped right into it within that time and didnâ??t come outâ?¦ suffered and sufferedâ?¦ I got very desperate after trying almost every trick in the book for this problem and started thinking for myself. I thought back on the time when I got the depression. Like when I slipped into itâ?¦ This is what led me to the truth. What I realized was that within that time that the depression came on, I had been emotionally abused very badly. I was put down, neglected and made fun of every day for like months on end. This made me wonder if it was possible to retain negative emotionsâ?¦ I was walking through a health food store one day and picked up a magazine that advertised all kinds of naturopathic doctors and their services. I flipped to one page that said â??Negative Emotional Release Treatmentâ??â?¦. I knew right then and there that it was possible because if it is possible to release emotions then you would first have to retain themâ?¦I called this well educated doctor and he explained the energy system to me and how negative energy gets stuck in it. When I was in treatment my whole body tingled because I had so much negative energy in me. The tingling is the feeling of negative energy leaving the body. Now, what Iâ??ve found is that negative emotional release treatment is actually REIKI. I donâ??t know if youâ??ve heard of it before but it releases negative energy from the energy system. Iâ??ve learned how to do REIKI and I have released every little bit of negative energy that I had â?¦ I am now happier than I ever have been in my entire life! Itâ??s no jokeâ?¦ I feel the zest for life, the warm and cozy feeling that you have at Christmas all the time! Now itâ??s your turn... Like I said, 75% of depression cases is caused by emotional retention which means that not always this is the cure. In spite of that, REIKI helps every single person anyways because everyone retains a certain amount of emotions in their life timeâ?¦ Please try to locate the nearest REIKI centre near you and then send me their contact information so that I can make sure that you get the right treatment. I would like them to teach you how to do it on your own because it will save you a lot of money. I could teach you as well, but itâ??s better when itâ??s hands on experience. Itâ??s no where but up from here ok? Iâ??m going to stick with you until there is some kind of resolution. Iâ??ve been in the same situation that you are in right now, so itâ??s hard to be passive about itâ?¦ Happiness is the most important thing in the worldâ?¦. Itâ??s my mission to get you back in touch with yours.

I hope to hear from you soonâ?¦

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Warren

im sorry for all the things ive said i am happy that you guys are actually listening thank youguys and im sorry

i read on the internet that hospitals dont usally work that a lot of the time they make things worse and some hospitals dont even have people to help cutters i think im going to handle this by myself

im really really scared i just cut a few minutes ago and i never cut this deep before blood just came pouring from my arm i used a knife it camr with a sharpener so i sharpened it and... i sat there just staring at my arm for a bit then i put gauze tape around my armit felt good but at the same time i was scared i dont want to be that scared again but im scared what if i do it again what if its worse im just so scared im only a kid i dont know what to do

I dont know if this will help you, but i'ts two things I've heard other cutters suggest in other forums:

Draw on your arms with a red pen (mimic blood)

Put your hands in ice cold water (NO ICE) - hurts like crazy after a while