ok so i'm thinking of speaking to neil about getting a divorce. we've putting off for far too long now as we are clinging to the hope that things will magically go back to the way they were.
we still have something there and everytime we see each other there is chemistry but it is not enough. i sometimes think that it would be so nice to be with the father of my children but i guess i gotta start living for the future and not the past.
it just seems so final. i think we are both scared of the finality of it all cause we know that there will be know turning back after that.
can anyone explain to me what's going on in my head and why i am feeling this way and putting it off