well i havent been on here in so long and not sure who is still on here but I just found out the worst news anyone would ever want to hear. After 20 months of ttc and one varicose surgery my doctor called to tell me that my husbands mobiity in his sperm and with the conunt he can not have kids, that there is such a small chance. So he refered in vitro, or donor sperm. My husband does not want doner sperm bc this will not be his kid, and in vitro is so expensive doctor said 10-20 thousand each cycle with not knowing if it will take. This is just the most horrible thing to ever happen! He dont want anyone to know but thought I could announce it hear, and to finish with the doctor put me on progesterone pills about a week and a half ago, so I would quit spotting, I quit takin them a day before my period was to come and now I havent even had a period, which got us exicted and thought it could be a miracle but then I tested and it was a bfn. I ususally have 28 day cycles and now im on day31 with nothing. Life seriously couldnt be any worse