Just Need Someone to Talk to Once In Awhile Posted: 07-29-07 00:17am
Im a guy and im 15, ive been depressed for
about 2 years now, and now im more
depressed than i can ever be, I love this
one girl called megan but i know ill never
have a chance but i love her to death,
shes got a boyfriend that shes been dating
for like a year and a half now, i love her
so much but everytime she talks to me
about her boyfriend, i feel like caca,
when she needs advice about something with
her bf i help her, even though im helping
her and making her feel better, im not
making myself feel better, shes a lot
older than me, most nights i cry because
of her, she knows that i get sad over this
stuff and sometimes cry, i really want to
kill myself and get rid of the payne, but
i only want to do it by shooting myself in
the head but i dont have a gun, i have
good friends and all that but they dont
know wat and how i really feel like deep
inside, i dont go 1 second without
thinking about her and her boyfriend, and
she goes over to his house pretty much
everyday so i have to deal with the messed
up feeling of thinking about them together
and him holding her and kissing her and
all that caca.
shes knows i love her, but what can i do ?
im only 15 and shes 18, if you guys tell
me to go for another girl i cant, ive
dated other girls and this one is nothing
like the others, i love this one more than
ever, i dont know i just really need
someone to talk to sometimes
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littlesqueaks
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 06 May 2006 Posts: 296 Location: Caldwell, Idaho
Posted: 07-29-07 00:33am
Feelings for someone you can't have a hard
to get over. Specially when your young and
it sounds like the two of you are pretty
close which makes it harder. Your doing
the right thing by being her friend and
helping her when she needs you. This may
benefit you in the long run if things
don't work out for her and the other
boyfriend she will depend on you for a
shoulder to lean on because you have been
there for her. Friendship between a man
and a women can sometimes turn into
something more because love becomes
stronger between those who have a good
friendship to start with. So to harm
yourself could only waste an opportunity
that could come your way in the future.
Don't give up hope and you would be better
if you could find a lady friend as well
because this other gal might see you with
someone else and her true feeling could
come to the surface as well. She does know
of your feelings towards her so she may
have thought about it herself on whether
she has the same. Well I hope I have been
of some help, you just need to hold your
chin up and stay strong your too young to
give up.
Good Luck!!
Heather
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Kureji
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 29 Jul 2007 Posts: 14 Location: TN
Posted: 07-29-07 00:35am
Well, I've been in this exact same
situation. I'm 17 now and getting ready
to be a senior in high school, I know how
it feels dude. I'm physically hideous, so
I've never had a girl friend.. but that
never stopped me from crushing. The best
advice I could say is to look around and
find someone else, try making friends with
other girls and seeing how that turns out.
Hopes this helps.. though this is just
going from one depressed person to
another.
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j_j89
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Jul 2007 Posts: 19
Posted: 07-29-07 01:23am
Hello,
I am glad that you have come to ehealth
forum, you will definitely get a lot of
help and some good advice here. As a
single guy who's been hurt a lot, just
know always that you are not alone when it
comes to feeling these painful things. I
have experienced what you have and it
feels like the worst pain on earth. Just
the feeling of being so close to someone
who belongs to someone else/someone who
doesn't like you the same way is rough,
too rough. When you are faced with
something like this, it is best to wish
someone well and walk away. Walk away
STRONG and FIRM, you must for you. If this
girl is for you she will come for you, but
don't wait for her. She knows exactly what
she is doing, and it comes to a point
where you have to say to yourself "if she
wants to be my girlfriend she would be my
girlfriend." Everyone is in charge of
their actions and who they choose to date
and not date.
Especially in high school everything seems
so black and white, end all be all. Its
certainly not, now that would be something
sad if high school determined your life.
Just wait until you get to college or even
other social experiences, you will see how
much high school and many of the people in
it don't matter so much. Even with all
that I have said, i know there is the now.
Everything sounds great, but there is the
now that you have to deal with. All i
would say is to stay strong and look for a
brighter day, it is coming no doubt. This
girl should have more respect for you, she
is using you as a support, which is great
because you are there for her. But at the
same time its not fair because you have
feelings for her and she knows this. As
much as you care for her you cannot let
her use you. Talk to her and let her know
that you deserve a relationship that
enriches your heart, not one that steps on
it. If she cannot give you this you must
move on. If you have not seen a
professional counselor, I would. I have
been to a lot of counseling and it has
helped me tremendously, when you find the
RIGHT one you can really sit down, sort
things out, kind of look into her head,
find out why you feel the way you do, its
wonderful.
I could talk forever about this just
because I know how extremely difficult it
is to deal with all of this! Just from the
bottom of my heart with all sincerity I
know how you feel. The one thing though
that no book or person can really prepare
you for is that women often do things that
makes no sense. I don't think theres too
much thats sweeter or more beautiful than
a woman, but they won't always make sense
and they don't make sense to most men, so
keep that in mind. I say that because it
will help you to have a positive outlook
on all of this and just know that she may
not know exactly what she wants so it
doesn't make any sense that you would
know. Keep your head held high, remember
that you are the one thats important and
you are the light in this situation. Feel
free to message me if you need someone to
talk to. Sorry this is so long.
