I'm so scared. I don't know what I should do.
The problem is.. I moved across the country with my boyfriend for a great job for myself. To everyone around me here, he is my husband. He lives with me, and he does not work. He has not worked since we moved here...for 7 months. I told people he has a degree and is looking for work or looking to go back to school and such and such.. I just completed my BS degree and have a lot lined up for me.
I ask him to help with chores like laundry, dishes, taking care of the cat, floor, trash... he always says no. Sometimes he will do this when I am not there, but rarely. I will ask him, but he will say no, and I will end up doing it all with him just laying around watching tv or on the computer.
He thinks nothing of it to yell at me or tell me to make him something to eat even though I work all day. If I get off early from work and want to go hiking or at a local park, I'll end up going alone before he would come with me.
We play this computer game quite a bit together. He gets all worked up because he says I am doing stuff wrong. He pushes me. Hits me. Kicks me. Of course I have to defend myself.. I don't like getting slapped or punched in the face. Before, it has happened about 10 times now. I always try to forgive and forget..but it just happened again now. I tried to get on another computer to type this post, but he came in with a bleach squirt bottle and was spraying me with it..so I had to find another computer to use. I don't know what to do. He gets so violent. I tell him I don't want to be with him, I don't love him any more, please leave, please go back home, please...and he laughs and says why dont I go home. I say I belong here because I got my job and all... I tried locking my door to where I live, I live onsight where I work.. but he bangs on the windows and threatens to break something, and I don't want my neighbors to see. He doesnt have anywhere to go. These little violent episiodes seem to be getting worse each time. I really want some help..but I dont know what to do. I tell him I am going to call someone. he laughs and asks me who? I dont know who I could tell. Living on station here.. I couldnt call the police..it could ruin my career. My mom..his parents.. they all think everything is just peachy. I'm really tempted to call his mom.. ask if he has had these violent episodes before.. but I'm so scared to. He tried to choke me this time. Over a game? I hate when he yells..and thats all he does it yell.. if I sleep longer than he wants, he'll drag me onto the floor off the bed. He'll sit on me if he doesnt get his way..then of course I try to bite him.. who wants to be sat on. I dont remember the last time he has ever said anything nice to me. I guess I cant do anything right.
I'm so scared. I dont want anyone to find out. Though I dont want to end up dead over this. I think I broke his glasses this time. He broke a chair. This is not fun. I tell him I won't play that game with him if he yells. I was going to leave when he started yelling but he pulled the chair back and forefully sat me back down where I just sat there and eventually pryed myself free and ran into another room.
he doesn't just yell about this game. if I am driving and take a different route...oh my god.. if I don't buy what he wants at the store.. if I dont stop for fast food for him.. if I take too long doing something..
sigh..
not enough money to move. and i live where i intern. i'm so scared...he hasnt found where i am at the moment yet.