i started having panic attacks when i had my first son.i didn't go on medicine and i felt back to normal after about 7 months.i stayed panic free for 5 years.i had my 2nd child in march 04 no post pardom felt great.one thing i forgot to mention is in 03 i found out my kids father had gotten on crack bills wasn't being payed, money went missing, he was very mean and lied about everything!he promise me had quit well he didn't this went on for 4 years i would think he wasn't doing it and would be devistated the 6 or 7 times i found out.the last time i found out was july of last year well i had had enough so i told him to leave.well i ended up meeting a really awesome guy.he found out and decided to go to rehab he stayed for a week and i stop talking to the other guy who i had fallen in love with.it has been a year sense he quit(i think)well i started having panic attacks in nov last year butt the past 4 months has been pure hell i'm scared to go out of the house if i go to a store i have them in checkout line. i get nervous about even leaving the house ! i'll get ready to go but in my mind i'm worrying so much i'll end up just not going!feeling this way has me so depressed i just won't to die i know it's not logical thinking so why can't i stop it.i've also been diagnoised with tacacardiya

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