I'm in a highly anxious and depressed state as a result of severe stressors in my life for some years, I have three children one with a disability and special needs including other health problems. My husband had a breakdown, physical and mental 15 months ago which had been coming on for some time but as a result he lost his business and went bankrupt and we are losing our home and can't meet our bills, and then four months ago I emotionally and physically, crashed - severe nausea and finally black black depression and anxiety. I have been on mirtazapine - an anti-depressant for just over two weeks and take xanax 1mg twice a day for anxiety although my phych wanted me to stop them and take serequel for the anxiety as they are non habit forming but they didn't work so I went back onto the xanax.

I just feel so helpless and sick and tired and lost, I wake up in the morning feeling terrible, sick and anxious, everything I do is an effort, there's nothing to look forward to, no pleasure, no hope and I just try to keep on going. I have an appt. with my phych. again in two weeks and I know that mirtazapine can take some time to work - but I can't bear the thought that i will feel like this for the rest of my life. I have my children to care for they are just six and triplets and they deserve a real mum not half a mum.

I hate being so pathetic!!!!!! I'm in tears as I write this

Please can anyone give me any hope.