Heya. Im 13 years old and about to enter the 8th grade. Im 4 feet 11 5/8 inches. I weigh 106 pounds. I have been bulemic for almost four months now. Around three weeks ago, I started fasting for no reason. I dont know, I guess it'd be faster to lose weight that way. But I didnt stop throwing up. I eat and throw up for 3-4 days and fast for about 5 days, and then switch. Its a cycle. I think I eat and stuff because Im depressed. Im depressed because my Mom's depressed. She gets mad easily, and she's not smiling for real anymore. She keeps getting ripped off by people. She's 29 years old and she pays for a kid, a giant dog, a house, herself, and two cars. Every little thing that goes wrong, she takes it out on me. I've recently had tons of suicidal thoughts. I dream of me dying and stuff. Also, Im an alcoholic. I drink liquor, because beer is gross. I know its bad, but it makes me feel better. Im one of those kids in school that everyone nows about, student council, honor roll, athletic-ish, teachers' favorite student; so no one suspects a thing, which makes it even harder to tell someone about my problems. I know I need help, but I dont know where to go. I've told two friends, but they dont take it seriously. So now, Im turning to random people I dont know.