having endometriosis feels like a curse. i too fall into the category in which you cant afford insurance and cant get medicaid. the pain is excruciating. i have had this since 06. been to the ER approx 30 times. i have attacks of unbearable pain and uncontrollable nausea. i let them do all the tests and nothing comes up. ive had about 35 CAT's done. i know the risk im just hopin theyll see SOMETHING and open me up and do some sort of surgery. now i am diagnosed with squamous cell cervical dysplasia as well which has a 30-50% chance of turnin into cancer without treatment. i cant keep spinning my wheels im gonna lose it. lately i have resorted to actually taking the pain meds they give me from the ER bc i cant get over the pain in the morning to begin my day. and now without insurance, i have resorted to buying my own medication on the streets. for what?? im 26 i dont deserve this!!! people who post about addiction to pain meds dont have a clue!! i am $200,000 in debt to my hospital! every er visit costs at least $4,000. someone addictd to pain meds has the common sense to know buyin them illegally is way easier and costs A LOT less. its just the daily stuff i cannot deal with. when you have severe endo, your whole stomach area feels like u had food poisoning the week prior and your stomach is just screaming, cramping, hot, miserable.. think about the worst throbbing migraine youve ever had and move it to your stomach. everything makes it worse. sex, any pressure on the abdomen, bowel movements, urination, change in temp, even laying on my side, standing up, goin in an elevator, hitting a bump while driving i just want to scream! why is it so hard to find treatment? i am supposed to have a future damnit not worry about if im going to make it out of bed tomorrow without wantin to shoot myself! and there is no help... why?