I am going thru something very similar. Please feel free to pm and I would be happy to fill you in.

Hi All4Him

I sent you a message...

QG

I have numeric dyslexia and have had for years now. Just now able to add those pieces of the puzzle with the rest of the symptoms.

MsSky

when you got married did you not say a vow for better or worse???? sorry but i prided myself on honor, love commitment my wife dishonored our relationship and my handicapped child 7 years later still suffers from our mistakes i'm the one with ms. any way my point is her selfishness and my kids who suffered the most. (always the kids) who pay..... it does not matter who's family .....very sad.

protector33, yes, I did vow "for better or worse," and "in sickness and in health" and did my best for seven tortuous years after she got sick. By the time I hit the end of the rope it was either suicide or divorce. And since I have a disabled daughter who needs at least one healthy parent, divorce was the only option. Guilt was something I suffered from for a few months until I realized we'd be happier (both of us) apart. (which we are, now.) And financially more stable, since medicaid/medicare pays for everything for my ex wife. She was spending money so irresponsibly and so QUICKLY that we'd be destitute had we stayed together. Now all her finances are managed for her and my daughter and I are financially stable again, looking toward the future.

In the circumstances we were given... sticking to the wedding vows would have killed us both, eventually. And that's silly.

I go through this to, I know the feeling of suicide in your mind and the constant guilt and feelings of failure for giving up. In my case my wife gave up she didn't even try, she doesn't want to no matter what, she's quit on our family. Her mind if full of bad negative memories, she has no ability to fix situations and will not admit to any problems. She can sign a paper and look you straight in the eye and say she didn't. Her temper is quick to react and about as unloving as you can find. I understand I've searched hundreds of websites to try and find answers. I've given her articles to show her that it's the MS, her family tells her that could be anyone so my family is left on the outside. This disease has beaten the life out of me and I don't have it, I've spent the last 5 years constantly crying with the stress and doing every thing I can to keep the stress on me and not on my children. I know what your going through, you are not alone.

I understand.

You are suffering with situation and you can solve it better.
God will help you to out of this situation.