I am 18, and I just got out of a two year
relationship about two months ago with
someone who was verbally and emotionally
abusive. Ever since the break up, things
have been rough for me just because I have
been confused. He tells people lies about
me just because he's upset because I'm the
one who broke up with him. But anyways, I
am trying to get into a new relationship
with someone I have been friends with for
a long time. Last night while at his
house, out of no where I started to black
out really bad and I started to zone out
every 10 seconds or so to the point where
I would have to ask myself where I was and
who I was with. He gave me some water but
I was shaking to the point that I couldn't
drink it. I just felt really out of body
and I kept thinking that something bad was
going to happen, or that I was going to
die. I was so dizzy I thought I was going
to throw up, so I asked him to take me
home. He did and I came to bed as soon as
I got home and I was shaking so
uncontrollably that I was pretty much
convulsing, my feet and hands and lips
completely numb. I couldn't walk. I just
kept thinking I was going to die or lose
control of myself. I woke my mom up and
told her I needed to go to the hospital
because something was wrong with me. I
told her I was going to die. My heart was
beating so fast I kept thinking I was
going to have a stroke or something or
lose conciousness. It was just the
scariest feeling ever. After 3 hours of
this, I managed to calm down and fall
asleep around 4am. I have never ever in my
life have had someting happen like this to
me before. It was the scariest feeling
ever, and I never want that to happen
again. Does anyone know if this is a panic
attack or post traumatic stress or what? I
have been very stressed out lately, but
pushing all of my bad thoughts aside for
so long. Can someone explain to me what
this might be? Thanks
