I just feeling really down again at the moment. It doesn't help tjhat robbie has a new contract at work that has him out the house from 6.30am til 7pm. When he gets back he is really tired and I can tell he just wants to go to sleep instead of sat with me.

Neil doesn't help either. I realised that I will NEVER get back with him because little signs show me that our problems would resurface all over again. It's really sad but I have come to accept it.

I feel really helpless with my mums situation too. I know she is so scared to have this baby and she is feeling really down about it. I just wish there was a way I could change her circumstances

I am just so down. I have to go and pick up a parking permit for the car and I should really take the kids to baby group. I have had insomnia now for 2 weeks and it's really killing me. I know it's because things are stressing me out so much and it's keeping me up all night worrying.

Sorry for the long post. I just needed to rant. Any words of encouragment or comfort would be most appreciated.