I am writing because i guess i am a single
mom, but more of a non custodial mom. I
read so many of these stories and they all
have one thing in common. They have their
children every day. I don't. I am a mom
like all these other moms, but i don't
have my children. I love them so much and
I try to be so involved in their lives
every day. Even though it makes my ex
mother in law mad, I still call everyday
all day to find out what they are wearing,
what time they woke up, what they had for
meals, were they bundled up for the bus,
did they have any sibling squabbles again
when getting off the bus, were they
bundled up when they got off the bus? What
they are doing now at home after school.
What are they watching on TV? What are
they playing, what is their homework, how
are their grades?
So so many questions, each and every day.
Then they get on the phone with me after
school, I dont get to ask them to many
questions anymore because they are getting
older and dont like talking to their mom
on the phone to much anymore. But i do get
to tell them i love them, i miss them, im
thinking about them. I ask them "gym, art,
music, or library", everyday. They usually
tell me after a few min of thought which
one they had today. Then they say i love
yu, and i quickly get in i love yu, dont
talk to strangers. Their like, i know mom
you told us yesterday. Im just a mom who
worries like all other mommies. Im a
normal mom like everyone else. When my
children were very little i suffered
depression, and after several years my
husband divorced me. No im not a bad
person, no i never got psychotic, i was
just sad and layed around cried. I guess i
can say that the divorce was good for me,
because i was able to grow up and find out
what a beautiful strong woman i am and
have become from all of the past
experiences. I have grown out of the
depressive era in my life, and i have
moved on and gotten my degree from college
and now i am completing my second
bachelors and i plan on getting my third
bachelors soon. After that i plan on my
masters and teach college.
