i was at wemf 07 last night..
and i wound up taking like.. 3 hits of k, a pill of e, and then some acid around 1 am sunday..
it was my first time taking acid and k..
i thought everyone wanted to kill me and take my money in my pocket
i kept hearing screams of people being murdered near me...
it was like all of reality outside of the rave was just a void.. and everything in the rave was a malevolent force that wanted to walk up behind me and stab me in the back and leave me there...
i think i cried a few times but i dont know.. a guy i hung out with that was in a k-hole kept saying i kept standing up and sittinh down.. and saying i wanted to find my hobbit hole...
i thought my best friends there wanted me to die...
and it was so cold!! i was walking from the lavatories and back and it took centuries... and i was so cold.. it was like the arctic..
i was wearing shorts...
i swore i had ice forming on my shins..
and i had no one to talk to...
and everyone was screaming and wanted to kill me..
oh i tried walking around in the dark but i think i fell down alot... but i dont know
i think a lot of stuff happened.. i dont know.. my entire perception of reality was shattered...
i contemplated suicide 10 times a second.. but i wasnt being sad about it... it just made sense.. what else was i going to do... it just seemed right...
it seemed like the grass was on fire whenever i tried to leave my seat... i couldnt leave my camp.. i forgot where i was anyways...
i kept trying to be logical
and come up with reasons for what was going on...
but i kept defeating my own logic..
it was one helluva fight to keep control of a fight with.. myself.. idk...
at one point it seemed to me like i had every process in the universe held in my head in a ball of red whispy yarn.. and i was just pulling it apart willy nilly while people were screaming in pain...
and the seagulls were shooting lasers..
im still kind of tripping...
while things go to normal soon?
im really lonely...
i dont know how i got home..
i dont think anyone cares anyways...
im just messed up
medical question it