I am 19 years old, soon to be a junior in college. I broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years a few months ago. A few weeks later I started partying again. I had been drinking and hooked up with one of my guy friends and needless to say we weren't in the best state of mind to be having sex. That was a little over a month ago. I've missed my period, been tired, and just overall I feel different (pretty much all the early symptoms are there). I've been wanting to take a test and I know I should, but I just have this fear that taking it makes it become REAL, ya know? The hardest part for me to deal with is that I'm not dating anyone so it makes me feel like people are going to judge me even harsher than if I had been in a steady relationship. The other thing is that if I am pregnant, I will be having a mixed child (I'm white and he's black). I have no problem with that personally, but I am unsure of how my parents will feel about it. I am 'allowed' to date any race, but who knows what they will think about having a child. Sorry this is so long, but I haven't talked to anyone yet so it feels good to get this all out! Thanks!!