Anxiety and Stress Forum - Scared of Death

NiCOu wrote:

Ok to start off with im 21 and im almost constantly thinking about death not that I want to kill myself.. but just thinkin that someday i wont exist anymore just makes me crazy... about a month ago .. for a week straight all i could do was talk and think about death.. i would cry and couldnt do anything without thinking about it... i thought i had went crazy now its a little less intense but at least 10 times a day i think about it... Im so scared of everything.. its ridiculous.. pretty much everything i do i can find a threat in it that makes its dangerous and that it could kill me... my mother passed away last year, ive asked myself alot of questions about life and death since but now its just become an obsession.. i often get depressed thinkin theres no point in life if someday ill dissapear.. i dont really believe that there is something after death... if there would be there would be an afterlife for everything that has life... wouldnt there be ? why us as humans would have one more than a dog? humans just developped enough to get intelligent an realise that there is death.. and so to not pass our time about being scared of it they created religions and all that stuff so that we believe there is something after... kinda rediculous, were just not facing reality... i wish i could live my life not thinking like this i dont know what to do... im tired of being scared and that death is taking over my life... i often get anxiety attacks when thinking of this... im so scared.. i really cant accept that someday it will all be over for me

First off, it is very normal after the death of a loved one to feel the reality of it. Losing your mom is th hardest death a young person goes thru, and you are young so Im guessing her death was untimely. I lost both my parents very very young. So you are feeling anxiety Im sure.
You dont know any more than anyone else what happens after we die, so your scenario is inaccurate information you made up. Not all belief systems were invented by the Western church, it might be interesting for you to read about them. It is normal for all of us to want to learn about the universe, and how we fit in for all of eternity. Your mom's death just brought it up sooner for you.
You should talk to someone about your anxiety, a doctor or a therapist. No one can give you a satisfactory factual explanation of death, but you are feeling a lot of anxiety and focusing it all on this issue. It is still very soon after losing your mom, and things have probably been tough on you emtionally. YOu might want to try medication or therapy. There are also groups for people who have lost family members, I have been to several. PM me if you want to talk.