Hello all, I am a new member here on the
boards. My name is Derrick. I just have a
couple of things to discuss and would like
few answers.
First off, I am 23 years old, I have
been a father for 7 months to a wonderful
baby boy. Secondly, I was engaged this
time last year to his mother, when then my
illness which I was unaware off cost me to
be in both of their lives like I should
be. We are finally beginning to work out
our problems. Well, more less my
problems.
I just want to ask anyone who suffers
from this illness, if being Bi-Polar
causes you to lie about the most stupidest
things. My lying has caused so many family
problems, and problems with my baby's
mother. I love "Kat" a lot, she is the
mother of my son, and the one person I
want to spend the rest of my life with.
But I told so many lies, about myself,
money, past, everything , It cost me our
relationship, and being able to be with my
son everyday. I lied about A LOT of
things, even when the truth was good
enough. The stories I told everyone, were
so believable, Even eventually I begin to
believe them to a certain extent. Up until
recently I still denied everything. Since
I have been honest about everything, and
trying my best to fix my problems, things
are starting to look up, for the best. My
doctor has started me on Depakote ER, I
hope this stuff works, only been on it for
a few days. But my main question, after
all of my ramblings, is... would being
bi-polar make me feel like I need to lie
to impress people? Its not really that I
want to lie, its the feeling that I had
to, but most of my small lies became big
ones. That was the problem. Any help would
be appreciated, and thanks for reading.
Thanks again.