Hello all, I am a new member here on the boards. My name is Derrick. I just have a couple of things to discuss and would like few answers.
First off, I am 23 years old, I have been a father for 7 months to a wonderful baby boy. Secondly, I was engaged this time last year to his mother, when then my illness which I was unaware off cost me to be in both of their lives like I should be. We are finally beginning to work out our problems. Well, more less my problems.
I just want to ask anyone who suffers from this illness, if being Bi-Polar causes you to lie about the most stupidest things. My lying has caused so many family problems, and problems with my baby's mother. I love "Kat" a lot, she is the mother of my son, and the one person I want to spend the rest of my life with. But I told so many lies, about myself, money, past, everything , It cost me our relationship, and being able to be with my son everyday. I lied about A LOT of things, even when the truth was good enough. The stories I told everyone, were so believable, Even eventually I begin to believe them to a certain extent. Up until recently I still denied everything. Since I have been honest about everything, and trying my best to fix my problems, things are starting to look up, for the best. My doctor has started me on Depakote ER, I hope this stuff works, only been on it for a few days. But my main question, after all of my ramblings, is... would being bi-polar make me feel like I need to lie to impress people? Its not really that I want to lie, its the feeling that I had to, but most of my small lies became big ones. That was the problem. Any help would be appreciated, and thanks for reading.