Bulimia And Edema - Why I'm Afraid to Stop Posted: 07-16-07 23:06pm
I've been 'bulimorexic' since I was
19....I'm now 22, and have been out fo
treatment (I went to the Renfres Center
for 4 months) for almost 2 years....I've
relapsed but have been able to trick my
family and even psychiatrist....i still
don't consider myself as bad as i was when
I went into treatment, but thats only
because I don't have the energy to purge
as much - i still overeat- and have gained
weight, up to 125 pounds now, from the 95
that i was when i was admitted.......i
purge eveyrday in secret, and the reason,
one of many, i cant stop is because
withion the first few days of eating
normal meals in treatment, i had jumped
from 95 to 120 pounds in the space of 5
days...I had a bad case of edema, and was
swollen everywhere.....it took nearly 2
months to come down, and i was barely
comfortable during that period because i
was in the protective 'bubble' of
treatment...i know once i try to eat
normally again this will happen b/c im
prone to edema...even now when i have one
or two normal size meals, i swell up and
refuse to leave the house....i have a life
and cant afford to do that now.....what do
i do???
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bibisim
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Joined: 08 Aug 2007 Posts: 76
Re: Bulimia And Edema - Why I'm Afraid to Stop Posted: 08-08-07 04:49am
aligurl091
wrote:
I've been 'bulimorexic'
since I was 19....I'm now 22, and have
been out fo treatment (I went to the
Renfres Center for 4 months) for almost 2
years....I've relapsed but have been able
to trick my family and even
psychiatrist....i still don't consider
myself as bad as i was when I went into
treatment, but thats only because I don't
have the energy to purge as much - i still
overeat- and have gained weight, up to 125
pounds now, from the 95 that i was when i
was admitted.......i purge eveyrday in
secret, and the reason, one of many, i
cant stop is because withion the first few
days of eating normal meals in treatment,
i had jumped from 95 to 120 pounds in the
space of 5 days...I had a bad case of
edema, and was swollen everywhere.....it
took nearly 2 months to come down, and i
was barely comfortable during that period
because i was in the protective 'bubble'
of treatment...i know once i try to eat
normally again this will happen b/c im
prone to edema...even now when i have one
or two normal size meals, i swell up and
refuse to leave the house....i have a life
and cant afford to do that now.....what do
i do???
HI,
I understand yu well. I started to be
bulemic when 19. before that I was
anorexic. you know someday you have to eat
for living. I started and having no
intelligent eating habits started to
overeat and compensate once a week, then
twice a week and at last every second
day... I struggled and I am proud to say
that during last year I throw up just 10
times. Four months now I am free from
purging.
The thing is that writing this msg I am
having my pizzas and etc. Yes I do binge
on a very very regular basis....just few
hours ago I was feeling panic ....when do
I stop this and get my life.
But now after searching the topics on ED I
realized that I have done a great job, I ,
without any side help released myself from
bulemie and I am just binging ......this
is a great feeling.
So, my dear if my experience helps you to
fight punging I will feel happy. Yes, just
stop punging . I know the idea of leaving
in stomach all the heavy calorie bombs
you've had seems at the moment abnormal,
but you have done a good therapy and you
can leave it there. You shall have a
temptation to hunger a second day, but
instead make a fruit or yougurt day, and
the third day your appearence in the
mirror wont be worse then a moment before
binging.I am not qualified on advicing you
what you should do after watching yourself
in the mirror.
Any way, the thing that you have not
punged and have won is a great feeling.
you seem to be a strong person, you shall
like the feeling: Iv defeated a pung
syndrom!
HI,
