Brian was dismissed from NICU yesterday. On the way home, he started to become a bit congested. He became worse as the evening progressed. When he slept, he sounded like he had sleep apnea. It sounded as though his tongue was going way back in his throat. We were going to go to emergency but didn't because he seemed better if I held him up. I ended up holding him up all night. I am exhausted. We have a doctor's appt in about an hour. I wouldn't be surprised if he was placed in NICU again. Perhaps he is fine and I am just freaking out for nothing. I hope that is it. Brian's cord looks like it is getting infected as well. It has been bleeding a little since we brought him home. He had three cords going through his belly button, so it hasn't had a chance to heal like most cords.

He was officially diagnosed with severe respiratory distress syndrome. I read that this almost never occurs in infants who are born after 37 weeks. I know that he was at least 37 weeks. When I talked to the neonatalogists, they didn't really have an answer for me. I did have Premature Rupture of Membranes early on but since I sealed and it seemed like I had enough amniotic fluid, it wasn't a great concern.

I am confused and upset. I just want my little one to be healthy.

He is such a good lil' boy and very hungry. He has bonded with me quite well. I just love him so much. He has the most wonderful disposition. He is the biggest fighter. I will provide an update after the doctors appt. Please think and pray for him.

Thanks