Dani, it shows a lot of bravery that you're strong enough to admit this. So many new mothers are ashamed and try to hide their feelings and try to pretend to be ecstatic about everything, when in fact they're overwhelmed.

I hope your midwife is able to help you. Try to be open and honest with her. The best thing you can do for Mika right now is to try to help her mother.

And I'm not sure if this will be a comfort or not, but many mothers aren't able to bond with their babies simply because they don't feel anything from them. In a few weeks, when Mika starts to really look at you, you might start to really feel that connection.

You can pm me anytime you feel discouraged. I'm always here, sweetie.