The thing is, I grew up without a family. My dream of all dreams is that when the time is right, to have a big family of my own. Well because that is what i want so badly, in the back of my head, i have this huge doubt that lingers on that I'm not going to be able to fulfill my dream.
Two years ago, with my long term boyfriend at the time, we continued having unprotected sex.
He never ejaculated in me, never the less, I've herd that pre-cum is the killer!
Well, i had a few pregnancy scares
(More or less, i think it was all in my head)
but never ended up pregnant.
I just always wondered, "well, we never used any protection, could that possible mean I'm unable to conceive?"
Well, its now two years later, i am now in a new long term relationship, but yet, i am still at wonder.
A few times, he has actually ejaculated in me, but iv ended up baby less.
I know this is probably ignorant for me to say, but its not that i want to conceive a child at this point in my life
[Of course, if i ended up pregnant, i would be thrilled but i know the timing isn't quit suitable for a baby]
But its just the fact, that i want to know that i am able to conceive.