Oh my god you guys guess who stopped by my house yesterday??? Camerin....Eek! He came over yesterday while my mom wasn't home......So we sat in the living room (on two seperate pieces of furniture) lol.....Then my mom came home and he went with us to get subway since she decided she didnt wanna get out of the car......Lol. So we came back and I ate half of it.....Then we went in my room (left the door partially open) and watched a movie. I sat on the rocking chair and he was on the bed.....Then he moved to the floor (closer to me, lol) so I moved to the bed. He grabbed the picture above my bed thats on the shelf and was like whats this.....I tried grabbing it but I couldn't get it. It's a picture of dewitt and I kissing. He looked at it and just goes awwwww.....(sarcastically) I was so embarrassed and I have no idea why! Well we ended up finally getting around to talking....And I asked him if he really thought josh was his.....And he said that he knew that he was dewitts. I just wanna know why he told people he was if he knew he wasnt? But he also promised he wouldnt do cocaine anymore, even though he has only done it twice, I told him I just don't want to see anything that coke can bring about happen to him ya know? I care too much about him for that. When he went to leave we hugged and oh man did I miss that! Hugs are better than sex when done right! lmao! But yeah now I am debating on whether or not I should tell dewitt he was here......I know I didn't do anything wrong, I mean I didn't even invite him, he just showed up. But I know if I do tell him he's going to get mad and we'll argue, ill hang up on him, and hell call back later and say hes sorry he just doesnt know what he would do without me. Blah blah blah....Lol. I know good relationships are built on honesty though......So I dunno what I should do. Do you think I should tell him or not???
I would tell him, make sure that he knows that cameron knows josh is dewitts and not his son. Let him know that you were just talking, nothing happened and how much he means to you and all that good stuff! I am sure it will be fine hun!
No they don't talk.....Dewitt hates camerin's guts and he's never even met him! Lol......I just don't know. There is a chance he might find out from someone else, like a bigmouth that lives near me, but it's not guaranteed. I just hate arguing with him because he is so stubborn sometimes. But the thing is.....When I came in from locking the door behind camerin.....My mom said "i really wish you would make up your mind" and im like huh? And she says that one minute im with camerin, the next dewitt, and so on. She said I should get to know dewitt more before I decide on camerin and I was like I don't even know what you are talking about! She thinks that I can't be friends with camerin because he was my first love and those feelings will always be there. I know they will....But does that really mean we can't be friends? I mean, I really miss talking to him and like I said, he gives the best hugs! I know it's difficult because we both still have feelings for each other, but he's not a very straight vorward guy doesn't exactly make any *moves* he's always made sure I was completely comfortable and that it was completely my choice. Like the first time we had sex, all me. No pressure. He never even talked about it with me. Any more than he had to that is. Lol. I think that is one of the things I liked so much about him. But they can be good qualities in a friend too though, am I right? I'm just not sure if I should tell dewitt. I have until about 4 my time to decide. I'm kind of leaning on yes just in case he were to find out from someone else. And besides, his son is <-this-> close to being born so I don't think he would chance being mad and not talking to me for very long. So I guess I might as well take advantage of the situation. Seems like it makes sense. Any more input would be nice since we are riding the line right now! Lol
Oooooo I might go into labor huh? Very tempting! lmao......I dunno.....But I think I am gonna tell him. I'm also going to have to tell him tp grow up and not be such a baby.....I am going to have guy friends throughout my life whether he likes it or not. Although I can kind of understand why he doesn't like camerin in specific, I still think he needs to give it a rest and just trust me. I am 38 weeks pregnant, honestly, what the hell am I gonna do??? Lol.....I was tempted to ask him if I could borrow some sperm to induce labor though! lmao....J/k.....I wouldn't really do that. I am just a little desperate. Lol. Thanks for the advice. I think I will tell him but still not sure! Knowing me though i'll break down and tell him due to guilt. Lol. I'm a dork.....I feel guilty for nothing. But my mom was even trying to make me feel bad going I dont think dewitt would have appreciated camerin being here....Do u? And im like whos incredibly side r u on woman??? Lol. I'm a nut.
I dont really know your situation exactly so its hard to answer! You should write down the whole story and send it to me so I can understand but I do think honesty is the best policy. I was just at the park on saturday with someone I really loved for years and I told jesse that I saw him and that we talked for awhile and he was fine. If I wouldnt have told him then someone went back and told him he would have probably thought I was doing something wrong since I didnt tell him right away, you know!
I think you should tell him. Would you like to find out from someone else that dewitt had his first love over for lunch and watched a movie together in his room. The way your talking seems like your not even sure if you would like more with camerin. I believe dewitt has the right to hear it from you. Other wise you could lose his trust.
Which is exactly why I think i'm gonna tell him! lmao! I sometimes wish that I could have with camerin what I used too but I know that would be no good for me or josh. And besides, there are things that dewitt and I talk about that I would never talk to camerin about! (ie: constipation) lmao.....Lol. I really don't want him to be angry though......I just hope he reacts a little better than I know he will......
Is that dewitt in the picture? I think that is probably were the gilt feeling is coming from, the fact that you still have feelings for camren. When you tell dew just remember that you did nothing wrong. Maybe even to make dewitt a lil more secure you can mention here and there things you hate about camren as your telling him. You may find after telling him this he will want to be around you more often.
Yeah I suggest tellhim. You need to keep the trust and be honest because if he found out, then you lose it all. I know I get very mad if jose even has a tiny conversation with a girl, I want to know everything. And when he doesnt tell me and I find out otherways, then I just turn psycho, I yell at him and kick him to the livingroom and tell him im not trusting him and stuff. You need to have trust and if he cant handle the truth then doom on him. Like from the movie ice age...Doom on you! Doom on you! Hahahaha I love that movie!
Yeah amber I did tell him but I don't think it would be right to say stuff I hate about camerin because there isn't really anything I hate! Except for one thing, I hate the fact that he doesn't hate me! Lol. I mean, after what I did to him, he doesn't hate me. It makes me feek incredibly guilty. But thats just the kind of guy he is I suppose. But like I said, I want to be friends. It is a little awkward right now but hopefully it will get better. I caught myself thinkin the other night well you know if things dont work out with dewitt.....But I hate thinking like that. It's like I think of him as back up and he deserves better than that. But I don't know I am making absoloutly no sense.