My cuz died from cancer leaving behind her husband age 50.
Since my cousins death her hubby as been chatting to me and i have tried to be there for him, and offer comfort.
We live along way from each other and our only contact as been via msn or email.
This as been going on about 6month, he as told me alot of personal things regards him and his wife, and i know how much he loved her.
They had been married 30 yrs, she was is first girl friend, who he went on to marry.
For the last couple of month he as been saying he loves me and wants to be together, and our conversations have changed some what.
I find my self having feeling towards him, i really care for him and want him to be happy.
I am married but our marriage as driffed apart, for different reasons...my husband as been extremely jealous of me chatting to my cousins husband, to the point of pushing me around...my husband says that my cousins husband is chasing me.
When i first started chating to him, i had no idea my feelings would change towards him, it was not planned, we had always mailed each other for two yrs before my cousin had died.
I am left confused, infact i think we both are to be honest....and he as stopped mailing and chatting to me,he says he needs time to sort alot out, and that hes not mailing ot talking to anyone....he as only let me know because im special? i feel lost and had gotten so use to our convos, yet i know he does need time, yet i worry so much about him.
If anyone can help with my feelings it would be grate.
I also miss my cousin so much and wish she hadnt had died.....its brough memories back of my mums death also.
I feel so sad and unhappy and at my age 45 feel i should no better.