any relationship i have been in, i have been very paranoid.

i especially worry about girls that my bf had dated before me. i don't know the girls, but i constantly compare myself to them. i ask him things like if i'm better.. prettier.. better in bed.. etc.

then, when he gives me an answer, i tell him he's lying. i just don't think he'd be honest about that.

i also worry about him thinking about other girls, checking out other girls, etc.

yeah.. i know.. he wouldn't be with me if he didn't love me, and i tell myself that. but, i can't control the thoughts i have.

it's killing me, and killing my relationship.

my current FIANCE and i are to be married at the end of this month. i'm just worried that if i don't get over this soon, it'll untimately end up ruining us.

i don't know what to do, though.

it doesn't help that one of the girls has a relationship with his mom, and is extremely obsessed with him. they dated 5 years ago[for only a year] amd she will not let go. she purposely tries to have relationships with his family to try and get to him, and he can't even stand her!

every other girl he dated cheated on him. i should feel better knowing that i'm not scum like they are.. but.. i still, for some reason, worry that they had something i don't.

what should i do? any suggestions?

(please understand that i have severe anxiety disorder)