I don't know how much more I can take. I'm so unhappy with my whole life and I don't know why. Ive got a beautiful 6 month old baby girl and I live with my wonderful boyfriend who I love and yet I'm not happy. I found it really difficult to bond with my baby but think I'm finally there. But I have this masssive issue about taking her out on my own or anywhere new. The only place I am 100% confident taking her is to the baby clinic which is about 5 min walk from my house. The thought of taking her anywhere else especially on a bus, stresses me out. I feel so embarrassed saying this but I've only ever taken her out by myself once and even then I started crying and had to get my mum to come and pick us up because I couldn't cope. I'm also strangely protective of her and won't even let anyone take her for a walk. Not even my boyfriend (her dad) even though I need and want the break from her. I hate the fact that i have to let other people hold her. I live away from my family so my parents don't knowabout my fear of taking het out although they have realised now that I'm visiting them for a week and want me to see a doctor. I think this is a bit extreme. But maybe I should? What do you think? I know this isn't normal but surely I don't need to see a doctor?
Are you okay now? It's been a while since you last wrote and I need to know before I try to help you (mother to mother) if you still feel the same or if you are coming around. Please write back soon. I had the same experience as you so I think sharing that and how I coped could bring some comfort. You are going to be fine.