I ask the same thing I have major depressive dissorder and a panic dissorder with symptoms of bi-polar
I take lithium 450 mg twice a day, lexapro 5mg once a day, wellbutrin sr twice a day 150 mg, xanax 0.25mg as needed
I have been through 3 other anti depressant as well.
I know how you feel, are the pills make me worse or better and its hard to take all this and not know which one is helping and which one might be hurting you.
But thats not alot of meds, I work with mentally handicapped patients and some of them take 20 pills every day