Hi,


As title point out, TMJ has really been depress me so much for the last 3 year since i have it. I dont i can tell you everything in detail about all that happen to me but i can summary it for you that. I am 23 y o male. I always kind of isolate myself from ppl because it is hard to fit in with ppl.

I actaully should never have a TMJ but i did and it was because my right TMJ was hit with an elbow 6-7 year ago but a kid back in high school while i was playing basketball. It actually dislocation my disc (right tmj) after that everytime when i open my mouth wide full and try to close it back, it swing awdward motion. Which i understand that deep down i know it is a premenant injury. I was depressed for awhile and i was so angry that the person who did it to me.

I am not a violent person and i dont see how hiting him back would any of my problem. I feel like my case was hopeless at the begining i never have a chance to prevent it because my right tmj was dislocated already the first time he hit me in the face.

that's was 11th grade. Surprisingly it only swing awdward when i open my mouth wide full so normal i dont open my mouth wide anyway so i feel normal and no pain. I have been living away from the feeling of having Tmj for over 3 year, and finally i got when i finish 2rn year of my college. at the time i had so much stress about many problem i was facing. I probably biting my teeth very hard when i was asleep. I felt very over stress so much at that time (2006) and it only about to getting worse when suddenly one night when i woke up I felt like my right tmj stuck which i cannot open my monuth wide or wide enough to eat a chicken nuggest.

I was so severely piss and angry about what happen and now i was all thinking and blaming about the kid who hit me in the face back in highschool. You know i used the days after i had a bad right tmj back in highschool i went to see a doctor in the heath center. and obiviosly it nothing they can do to cure me. The only thing they said is that "if it too bad, you have to go see a dentist" Oh my god, i was thinking about my fate how could this happening to me. Yes, i am thinking about this story and every bad story that happen to me. when i my right tmj stuck in college 2rd year. I try to stupidly hope to find a doctor who can cure me completely and start seriously research about TMJ online. The more, I get deeper, the more hopeless it happen as you already know tmj is not suggest to be surgery. because it most likely would could get worse or nothing is better from it. I was lossing it big time because I know i have anxiety and i always able to overcome any problem in the past and nothing can't be overcome. But now i feel the truth about my right tmj would be premenant damage. I start to loss myself and thinking about all the bad thing in the past that happened to me.

But the worse thing was actually about to happen.
I intentionally try to open and close my month wide and fast 1000 of time during the 2.5 week after my right tmj stuck while i try to eat.
opening and closing my jaw 1000 time all day for 2.5 week was saddest and worse thing that i did to myself. Yes, sir i eventually BROKE MY LEFT TMJ in the process as well. At the time, wasn't realize what i just did but only thing that the click and poping feeling was because of my wisdom teeth that I still have at the time. i thought that removing those wisdom-teeth my left tmj will be back to normal. but i was stupidly think it wrong, Now I have problem with left and right tmj. (double trouble!) after i broke my left tmj I still not realize a damnm thing, I should never do any of this (my parent tell me not to open and close my month all day but i never listen) I only realize it later that even a rolling piece of an airplane or car can be loose of broken if it being use too much in a short time.

I keep open and close jaw to the point that i hurt a cracking sound in the right tmj. right after that i feel the worse pain in my head i felt like someone nailling my ear. so much pain that i cry everyday. i panick attack. I had to drop summer school. go back home to my country. (I actually forgien student from asian here for high school and college)

The heath and medical cost back home was a lot cheaper than in USA. Still tmj cannot be cured (same concept everywhere).


At that time, i was panick to the point that i want to get away from this bad story tmj, bad momory and my time in america as a student. Of cause i would never dare to kill myself, there is so much things i want to do in life but tmj really hold me down.

I decided to come back to usa to finish college (finish what i start) and i just graduate last week. (2009)

You know, it's very surprisely my right tmj have a recover to the point that it no more poping clicking but still i can only open my mouth half the size i used to able to. still I have very satisfied and my right tmj condition right now as it not prefect but it doesn't bother me anymore.

However, However, However, Now my big problem is that my left TMJ is poping and click everytime when i try to open it wide. i had to roll my jaw to one side to unlock the pop and click sound to be able to open and right tmj.

I am sure who have tmj understand how annoying it can be (and the possiblely sore and pain around it)

remember i open and close my month 1000 time back in 2006 and that's is why my left tmj is mess up now. I did this upon myself. It is a sad reality. should never do that. If i didn't do that i could still keep a good left tmj and when my right tmj is recover i will be ok and no poping and clicking so i can go do or think about something else in my life to make my happy. but no i screw it up big time.


i kind of feel that my eye sight also getting worse due to tmj. I always hate about how think in my body getting worse now now it sum up to the point that i cannot stand it anymore. I feel so sorry for myself and my parents. they work and pay so much money to get me school here for the last 8 year. (2001-2009) Only to have a kid broke my right tmj in the second year (2002) and i broke my left tmj in 2006.
Now for the last three year in college 2007-2009 has been hard for me. The annoying tmj really affect my feeling.

Soon, I will be going home forever, i would never know or think about coming back to usa, as so many bad thing happen to me. Now i learnt that when you pay for the best you are not always the best. but i never thinking that i would get the worse this bad.

The regert and disappointment of mine go thru my head everyday 100 and 100 of time as that if i never come here to study i would never have gotten hit in the head(therefore, non of these tmj cause will happened). I would still be happy somewhere on this earth.

be from the disorder, depression, painful think over and over.


I been trying to cheer myself up but it hard

now 2009 the only things that bother me is the click and poping sound of my left tmj. i been trying to click and pop it on purpose a lot for the last 3 years hoping that the bone that lock my left tmj will get smaller. u know it's like you keeping scratch two piece of wood. hoping that it will get smaller to the point that it will not be lock anymore. U guys who have tmj kind of know that in the front of the disc that is a swallow curve bone that in order to open ur month wide, the dics have to work for ur jaw to roll over it directly right???

I think that curve bone is blocking my left tmj to open straight right now so may be if a doctor cut the curve for me may be the pop and click will be gone?????


or if i keep pop and click (try to slide my jaw with the upper curve bone (in front of the dics) One day it will get smaller to the point that no more pop-click???

because i been doing it over 2-3 year now i feel that it is getting easier to pop and click may be because the 2 bone that make pop and click sound got smaller???

But i really don't know may be i would screw it up even more. may be that was not the smart think to do. may be a doctor would never suggest to do surgery or cutting that swallow curve bone because it might make think even worse. There many nerve and muscle in that area that i dont know.

up to this point i really dont know how to get out of this left condition anymore (will it get better or will it get worse, what i suppose to do, or i aCTUALLY SHOULD Be doing noting at all) how my life gona be in the future. how can i be satisfied with my body.

whatever the answer is , i am very tired. so tired so sick of this disorder. sick of everything that went wrong, sick of the origin cause of all this suffer.
if i didn't get hit in the head 6-7 year ago i would never have this much suffer and i would not be typing this right now.

Anyone who read this i really thank you for reading my story.

If u have any comment or suggestion for me feel free to reply
thx