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bullfrog543

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this isnt fair why me
Posted: 03-06-08 08:15am

Ive been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia and from people have been called anywhere from jesus to the prince of darkness in revelations, i wrote down what i call schizophrenia -1 mark i guess even though its only my voices at least it be left as a post i took 5 years writting what the voices said to me some gross stuff but they were still just the same voices. sorry i never edited it appropriately before i appoligize for that. anyhow i hope my bibliography of my life doesnt ban me perhaps others can even learn from it.

my original hope was that someone would learn what pain we schizophrenics can expierience with why we think were superman and or jesus read this and you will see why schizophrenics have a high sucide rate i hope i am allowed to say that. if this doesnt teach you about voices and delusions that we all keep on trying to explain to doctors nothing will. i stand in front of schicitrist and cant explain my pain with the voies what delusions i see only vivid things no one will ever see schizophrenia the same after reading this.

we all know voices arent pleasant to hear but are they pleasant to read below start off with some rules sort of like commandments the voices shoved down my throught. i wrote them down on buses in malls in a little book i carried around with me all the time then once i moved the voices got stronger i went on missions duties and stuff with times and dates they occered. if you cant read the rules scroll down after them they are kind of boring. i hope you enjoy my biblography there was much pain in these five years that id like to share with you.

perhaps i get banned for my discussing my schizophrenia but at least leave the post here for people to read, remember this your not going to help schizophrenics with there voices from banning them on discussing what pain they go through.

enjoy

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Emails have been an added addition

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SIX SEALS

Reading this page requires a level change read at the bottom

remember as it is written no one on earth or in heaven was found to be able to open the scroll so I made the level change never new why at the start though I flip my scroll when needed (on paper)

>>>>>>>>>>&g t;>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>&g t;>>>>>>>>>> >>>

I started writing this about 2003 in a book I carried everywhere with me I decided to add it to this site because I didn’t want to loose my writings I have since lost two of these books one stolen

1) The bull frog says he takes karma from things so he can talk about those things and eventually so he can talk about other things with that karma. (Pam is a witch and always wanted karma from me supposedly so she could help me but it was in the long run so she could attack me)

1a) The bull frog takes karma from things so people places and things cant misuse it thus relieving them of more karma then they can handle, in hope to ease there long-lasting pain because power isn’t good. Considering the karma was taken he gives it to those that need it the most. Kind of like taking from the rich and giving to the poor.

2) The bull frog wants to know what people don't move because he says he has the privilege to control things that don't move universally (bill thinks he has unlimited privileges and controls the universes so he wants to add on to this rule I say no so he says let the bull frogs rules live for as long as they should)(The old beast says he supports Quebec to separate but what he really means he supports his wife with money once they move apart from each other since she is learning German and Japanese and Russian she is learning other languages because society is forcing here to because I moved he promised once I moved she would of learned all languages set by others)(the only way now to get this privilege is if you had it already or from the bible and the beast through his in the garbage and gave his wife’s family bible to me last Christmas 2006 he has no more he is afraid of them mabby even all books as he through them all away)

2a) The bull frog strives off of where to lift the spiritual properties of things that need to be strengthened. He has done this without much fail.

3) The bull frog says after I leave he will give goodness to everyone in the world (Pam means give away her stuff in her office, I know her) (bill says he will be better and give all his belongings away know, and his families as he thinks that’s enough)(he sold everything and his clothes so he can pay me at 6am)

3a) The bull frog says once he reaches Nanaimo to live life will be easier everywhere he goes for a time. God seems friendlier but mixed up he tells me to do things and we talk then changes his mind allot)(he is becoming very strong his wrath is soon I am seeing it lately and its getting stronger)(Jesus talks to me now haven’t heard him spiritually for years)(42 months strong)

4) The bull frog says he wants to control the phrase (there is no sure thing) (bill says he will attack everything to show his devotion to me I say no he says ok)(Pam wants to control normality to make her clients better not now she is retired)

4a) The bullfrog believes with God anything is possible basically you can find the goodness in anything if you really no how to look. The one thing God doesn’t like is satanic questions

5) The bull frog wants to control cigarettes (I'm pretty sure because Pam lent me some money) (bill says he will give me 2 million a piece for every cigarette made in life in 2008 at new years eve I say double if I have to wait he says ok)(I guess he is getting it from other worlds he agrees)

5a) The bull frog doesn’t like to see people go without a cigarette especially women and would dream of having enough money to help his friends or acquaintances out with cigarettes. The matrix is balancing out and Mother Nature is being freed its grip slowly. In witchcraft tobacco is offered to Mother Nature as a gift


6) The bull frog wants to control the word island (because Pam wanted to control the island itself but an office friend cursed her to control the word) (bill says he wants to support government employees and all working people and has to tell enough people that everyone should have free rent except for him so people can move out of town. He will give his liver and bodily parts and sell them to pay for peoples moves within a week of him and I not being friends so I guess he lied because he would be dead and he says he is moving away from his wife because he like to have sex with animals instead he controls his soul to make my rules stronger and faithful to me)

6a) The bull frog always moves back and forth to the island and the mainland sometimes it seems belong his spiritual control like society calls me to the mainland and God on mount Benson calls him to the island. I don’t like touching reality with my voices so I want to control my life of where and when I move to the island. In order to have control of this part of my life I found to live by the word of God would set me free and his word in one word is island because I always was at peace there with him

7) The bull frog says if anyone in the world needs something and can't get it he is going to do anything to get it for them (because her job says she has to help people and if she doesn't she gets fired, I suppose when she retires at the end of the year she won't like this rule because she won't get paid to help people)(bill says he likes this rule but him and his family only have the stuff he stole off me no clothes or food or anything he all ready gave it all away. he says he is going to pick up pop cans and let me get the money for them for the rest of his life to see if that is enough to support this rule)

7a) The bull frog says knock and the door shall be answered ask and you shall receive thus ones needs in life will always be the greatest upon all things to fulfill. One thing though I have learned is never short change your self if a beggar is cold don’t take your only jacket off for him because if you start to get cold and wonder why well your the only one to blame

) The bull frog wants to control all cigarette buts in the world
(bill says he will walk from one street to the next till he has no feet more then any famous person or any person for that matter till cigarette buts are free for everyone but him, I said supporting united states and Seattle to give them free coffee would or might be easier he said ok that and later he said both I said while walking around naked he excepts.)

a) The bull frog wants to be able to collect all cigarette buts from what ever source in case he or his friends need them

9) The bull frog wants to pay everyone in recycling goods (bill cant give me cans for this rule so he said he will pick up shopping carriages at grocery stores all his life to support this rule I said not good enough he said keep the money anyhow)

9a) The bull frog wants to be able to buy food and everything else in pop cans and money from carriages enough to survive when and if he doesn’t have food or other necessities.

10) The bull frog says to get paid from him use the code word pay check
(Based on the movie pay check)(Bill says the only code word that should be ever used is paycheck and he will collect door to door for the rest of his life when not collecting money from shopping carriages or picking up pop cans or anything else above he will devote the rest of his time looking for donations to pay for his new idea. I say no he says ok then begs to do it for me for all I have done for him)

10a) The bull frog says everyone has decency in them and ask me if I got paid yet instead of asking me every single day, usually on payday I pay back my debts

11) The bull frog wants to control the concept of moving things (she talks allot about moving perhaps she planned on me going on Semi independent living allot)(bill says he will touch himself 1000 times a day to support this rule)

11a) I find it uplifting that when I raise the spiritual properties of things spiritually I get more at ease but its a struggle to understand it and use it properly

12) The bull frog wants to control all little things in the world
(Bill is going to get his wife to go through the garbage everyday to support this)

12a) The bull frog wants to practice something called little faith he tends to see little faith being not greedy

13) The bull frog wants to condemn everyone’s family members if humanity doesn't give all body love and soul from their heart to him (she always talks about family and doesn’t like to hear anything negative)

13a) The bull frog wants to be equal in society generally excepted and respected for the things he does so much so that most of his family thinks he is mentally ill never amounting to anything in life and a born looser generally any family member with a mentally challenged life is condemn in life then I guess out of anger why not every family in this manner.

14) The bull frog wants to control promises (she doesn’t like it when someone doesn’t make a promise to her and it led to ultimate empty promises)

14a) The bull frog wants all promises made in his mind and life kept

15) The bull frog wants to control court houses (she fears the law because they keep her on her toes)

15a) The bull frog supports that all court houses should always stand strong spiritually even in judgement day

16) The bull frog wants to control all bad karma and future events (darn after June 6th 2006 (666) and July 4th 2006 use’s holiday and the childish country Korea bringing a knife to a suicidal gun fight, she seems to not be amazed at this rule anymore)

16a) The bull frog doesn’t believe in astrology and wants to control the bad karma he gets from it in life

17) The bull frog wants to control all one way streets (she wants to be privileged enough to control to have her own one way street in life it her way or the highway)

17a) The bull frog wants to believe the Holy Spirit controls the street

1) The bull frog wants to control all curses (she fears curses so she wants to control them)

1a) The bull frog wants to judge weather individual curses in history are still good because curses linger

19) The bull frog wants everyone in the world to rewind movies or she will condemn them (well friends leave my movies on certain parts of a movie when I lent her some movies in her office she seems not to of appreciated them not been rewound)

19a) The bull frog wants everyone to learn perfection

20) The bull frog wants karma from everything named such as from whom names town’s items etc. (doesn't like the road coquitlam ave because I lived there twice)

21a) The bull frog wants to collect purity by himself not being forced in given it all the time

21) The bull frog says she controls the word taken. (Vy had a motto when I got my shoes back from the police after months she said see no one steals here)(She swears she doesn’t take karma even if it’s a lie

21a) The bull frog says nothing is written in stone and stealing at times is need out of hunger he doest think be condemned by the law is always good

22) The bull frog says she gets rid of negativity around each and everyone in humanity she also wants to control the word give (vy and she controls bad karma around stores and malls and then makes up rules like who is allowed near them once it got out of control) (vy and she makes deals with the owners and forces them to keep the bargain even after she changes the agreement)

22a) The bull frog makes stores and houses whole by lifting up the spiritual properties of them thus giving them back there good karma though in such large scales it causes an awkward balance of karma and purity thus effecting even people

23) The bull frog wants to control when people take chemicals (I noticed vy upset about my meds when I changed them so she likes this rule now, though it is against the law for her to be apart of my medications)(she seems to think she is in charge of my meds)

23a) The bull frog doesn’t like chemicals and prefers vitamins in his life if they could give him the same effect.

24) The bull frog wants to force evil to be accepted in the world. (Vy turned evil once I was there and wanted basically to be forgiven for everything so used her push to be forced to be accepted in the house)(She believes all clients should be treated equal good or evil)

24a) The bull frog believes in star wars a little 'the force' I believe in universal balance

25) The bull frog wants to conquer all species on earth (seems vy can’t handle the pressures of things and reacts this way.)(She seems to battle everything)

25a) The bull frog gets frustrated with all the purity in his house he finds conversation with his enemies and reasons with them till they can’t handle the pressure

26) The bull frog wants to control all races and countries. (Vy is kind of temperamental of being Jamaican and because she wants to keep her old memories there she made this rule to defend her self against others)(She wants to control vy)

26a) The bull frog wants the world trade organization that was in Seattle to continue its efforts and make equal rights for everyone in the world, the one thing I remember when they were in Seattle was the riot and star bucks ransacked, so I boil it down to a cup of coffee

27) The bull frog wants to and Canadian tire wants to be gatekeepers (there greed for power and knowledge led them to this)

27a) The bull frog believes in opening up every door in his mind in life if its there it should be open.

2) The bull frog wants people to be psychic around her telling her and reacting to her in a nice way (vy wants me to warn her when she does wrong)(vy wanted me to balance the house before it got out of hand)(she wants me to warn her what she says wrong)

2a) the bull frog was once in a church and a Buddhist mentioned they save a penny from every dollar to give to us in the food part and then asked if I worked I said in my life it has seemed spirituality is more important then money, but his kind of kindness is important to replenish the soul, for it is said man can not live with bread alone but by every word that comith out of the word of God. So because my illness effects me spiritually every moment of every day I enjoy an intelligent conversation and bible study and psychics, as well as anything spiritually inclined

29) The bull frog wants to shove things down people's throats when she can get away with it (once I was taking my meds and a peace of tin foil was in my hand along with my meds and vy said take your pills. vy always wanted to talk over me and preferred to be better even if it meant having her cake and eating it too.)(She wanted to react with vengeance at times)

29a) The bull frog tries to fill up the inner soul of peoples throats to fill up the gap left through speech

30) The bull frog says he is going to give me a $17.174,576.73 dollars for each nickel I get (vy represented the nickel as love and said if I ever received love from another women it would be a cold day in hell)(bill wanted to condemn me with this so I could fulfill it with all my heart supposedly as long as he could make it impossible)(soon I will collect I will make it enough to pay off the national deficit 3 trillion dollars because by the time I lived at her place in 2002 I received thousands of nickels though I want to be paid the extra in pennies)(bill will have to make it 10590 times what she is going to pay per nickel and he says ok guaranteed but he is currently broke he says he will get the pennies from space since I have them all in the world from him now though there still owed but he is true to his word he also allows all answers and questions to go in the beasts heart from only this world and allows existence to only enclose upon his heart and his and his alone)

30a) The bull frog says his family never mentions the word love because are family isn’t emotional but to simply find the love for having a nickel is absurd and leads to greed love comes from within the soul, and needs never be mentioned but observed and understood

31) The bull frog wants to control all foods (she wanted to control how much we ate and basically starved us, but it also had to be set aside for late comers and was usually taken she never liked it. She emptied the fridge also.)(bill wanted to do this so much he poisoned me and cliff and his wife probably others as well he watches to much videos over and over again especially hanable)

31a) I like to eat healthy and prefer not to eat food with chemicals in or on it but because of his funds have been left out of what society offers

32) The bull frog wants to control the word start (she wants to control when and how people move in her place as well as there daily living)

32a) The bull frog wants to be free to live where ever learned that original things such as the proto types of things our spiritually invoked and quite often expensive

33) The bull frog wants to control the word rules, fights and caca (she decides what rules to follow in her life and wants to control the outcome of these rules if they lead to fight or basic needs)

33a) this book controls all evil rules so all I wanted is to make a book of these rules and give them to friends for karma

34) The bull frog says when ever the words I promise on my dying day is said by anyone in the world it's her (she makes the promises in her life because no one else can live up to them)

34a) The bull frog says he needs to build up faith because spiritually promises are going to be empty ones.

35) The bull frog says if people play off centered bets they will win more she guarantees it (probably gets karma)(She figures probability is a thing of the past and wants to control what people buy around her)

35a) The bull frog says he is so spiritually influenced that second guessing himself becomes almost impossible

36) The bull frog wants all my faith from going to superstore and she will pay for everything in cos-co and safe-way etc to me. (she promised to take me to cos-co once and said she would take me anytime but seems not to want to take me there know, been reluctant to ask her, and since I have rocks hidden up there she doesn't like this rule now at least she leaves them alone a little now.)

36a) The bull frog believes on low income one needs to thrift shop and there is no sure way in life if something looks to good to be true it probably is.

37) The bull frog wants to control the word know (she seems to be very punctual on appointments certain times and dates mostly to her advantage leading her to want everything here and know)

37a) The bull frog wants to choose when he goes places

3) The bull frog wants to control holidays (Pam believes I shouldn’t visit family and friends while missing her appointments or enjoying me on holidays)

3a) The bull frog believes holidays and birthdays and quality time are the most important things to spend time with others

39) The bull frog wants to be named vy when Pam is mentioned and Pam when vy is mentioned (vy doesn't like black coffee)(she gets tired of my complaining about how rough vy's place was so she tried to explain she is the same so I guess this rule doesn’t matter know that I moved and she is retired soon)

39a) The bull frog had hope that she would have sympathy and could recognize how mean vy was and that they were quite similar in the end

40) The bull frog wants to control spam and viruses (because or her name and vy's)(she had hope that her mind games and witchcraft natural rules would always apply to support it she associated herself and vy with rhyming words because she found some rules reflected on her)

40a) The bullfrog likes junk mail generally and doesn’t usually care much about colds though without my computer would be a boring life

41) The bull frog says that all people in poco are allowed to speak and write and gamble but no where else in the world because she has problems controlling more (she doesn't like this rule now she probably always hated me gambling and cursed me to loose hopefully big enough to move away to bad it was when she retired it didn’t do her any good)

41a) I could of made something of myself in poco by gambling or working or with new views news letter (poetry and stuff) though because I found the need to have entertainment in my life and the enormous negativity out in public due to ignorance and selfishness as well as non believers well it over whelmed me seems I cant make something of myself anywhere in life so poco seemed to be my last hope I can see a dim light on this now

42) The bull frog says all family is suppose to help everyone (I guess there might be a free will somewhere here)(seems to me choice on who and where and why people want to help are important here)(seems to me Pam couldn’t correct herself in her interference with my family and friends so she had hoped we could work her problems out ourselves)

42a) I believe my brother wants family to help family because he wants to live rich he cant bare being poor though he throughs it in my face I don’t believe one should have false pretences on conversations about friends or family even though some find a need to communicate and not care either way actually some even stick there knives in to one deeper while discussing family or friends all I can suggest never give up a chance to make someone smile or sincerely care about ones daily events and for heavens sake give a lending hand to your brother

43) The bull frog wants to help Vancouver by backing off from the world (backs off from the west of poco all away around the world, oh boy did I support this for awhile but this was meant to disturb the curse pams coworker gave her)

43a) I tried to make it a small world while I was in poco to actually give the world a chance to gain faith by not traveling out of town much and not visiting Vancouver as well I believed if I made it a small world there wouldn’t be as much bad karma for the general public.

44) The bull frog wants to take karma from the ground (I tell her some of my delusions Pam probably tested me)(Pam found karma was getting scarce so Pam decided to curse me by giving her karma from the ground)

44a) I found rocks found on the ground a great form of spiritual strength and then placed them in different places around BC

45) The bull frog says all women should be named Pam (so Pam probably liked her self)(she wanted to be recognized spiritually she was quite open with her spirituality)

45a) I remember once in church the pastor said what would you say you are if asked some said kind some said helpful ect ect... and I said for I am worthy but I couldn't tell anyone

46) The bull frog says it backs off people who say they need but only want (seems strange it must back off from her self allot)(it never really cared about me though it found my spirituality over whelming after awhile.(she was consumed with vy so Pam didn't like associated words as in lies then found she turned out like vy)

46a) The bull frog says evil wants and good need that is the way of the universe he always planned on the matrix speaking for evil to promise to purify the idea of this as this law needed to be strengthened

47) The bull frog wants to test towns so it can control their needs and wants (it figured if something attack her anything is allowed kind of like no hold bars, though their are rules to every war you must fight fair)(I suppose she didn't like supporting the rule book so left bill up to supporting the rules and Pam says so too)

47a) The bull frog wants to make a third concept of Atlantis a middle ground sort of none spiritual type. With the three one would find needs wants and a third thus leading to a collision of needs and wants because of the right of not believing in the unknown or perhaps part of the free will mankind has fought for

4) The bull frog wants to heal someone in Asia then she (amazing it sent a pill to Asia)(I wonder if you can tell a European to take a pill and thus have such a rule)

48a) The bull frog wants to heal one day and travel around the world healing people though it don’t look promising I still have faith

49) The bull frog says it wants to give choice to everyone in existence (it doesn't have to be given we make our own choices in life we might not like the choices we have but they our ours no one gave them to us)(bill wants one choice and that’s so he can support the rules better by spreading to people that the bull frogs rules are wanted by evil I told him as long as he doesn’t mention the word choice he agreed and as long as he gave me purified satisfaction in a good enough form to gain faith after I give it away to The proper force he said to easy now so I added a third one since this was a year in a half ago (eagle clock time 1:30) he is to also provide me one at a time all purified good mannered words in the dictionary only he says that’s all he can handle but he accepts since it was still to easy I said when I ask for the purified word one at a time he says no prob so I continue and say he can only obtain all this by spreading rumors to people he says ok then I say never say that word (ok) that’s definitely all he can handle after all this I have to force him to because over time he bit off more then he could chew by wanting to be associated with rules like this

49a) The bullfrog says one of the best things to obtain in life is the self satisfaction of helping others and judge situations fairly as well as making the right decisions upon ones self, do upon others as you expect them to do upon you, you aren’t to ask for a good deed it isn’t a good deed unless its done without asking for it some though say like on the declaration of independence that if you have the ability to do what is right you have the responsibility to perform the necessary things to make it right even if most see it as wrong it has to be also morally right in this respect it can be risky because the law of mankind isn’t flawless as the old saying goes no ones perfect and even a diamond has flaws

50) The bull frog says it takes claim and ownership of the concept if something happens because of someone it goes down the ladder (it is upset it doesn't win the 6 49 so it makes everyone loose there money to collect karma)(it would rather condemn people for simple wrongs instead of admitting its wrongs)

50a) The bull frog says a ladder is a straight path and twisted paths are more and more these days its difficult to find paths up and down ladders so he would like to be faithful to such things

51) The bull frog provides proper authority and funding to all schools globally (it tried to control government buildings of all types so I influenced this rule as it seemed the best existing rule forced on her by the government (it tried to control schools in support of this rule till they each got condemned in poco))

51a) The bull frog found the lamb needed a little strength and her school needed someone to follow that was in contact with me so he gave her the strength to control all schools as far as she could in BC though it was only until she finished school also the bull frog pays taxes on cigarettes and stuff so he legally supports government funded schools and tries to morally respect the teachers.

52) The bull frog provides free paper and buys all books for everyone (I gave bill paper and books because he had no money to but any so he probably wanted (it) to produce this rule, it probably accepted this rule due to my rule book in her office file)

52a) The bull frog gambles and knows of the expression knock on wood so he wanted to collect paper with wrighting because of his short fall in not being accepted in society and not having any money ever because he collected so much he dispersed it with people he new mostly friends and family

53) The bull frog wants to control all locations of club houses
(It was afraid of the historic setups so it presented new view club house as the way to face its fear)(It also figured that to control the mental health club house it would have control of its members)

53a) The bull frog wanted to choose when to go to the club house and knows they are all a good idea to support its members as they are all part of the same cause

54) The bull frog wants to have a mission in life to get rid of fear (It found the impossible became the possible and feared right from wrong because of its fear of the future leading to a twisted purity of the situation that supposedly spread)

54a) The bull frog knows by an email that ancients predicted up would even be effected on these days of tribulation though I wrote a poem judge and you will be judged and the old saying live by the sword die by the sword. Bruce lee found he was the best of the best but it is also known there is always someone better as he found the true gift was to defend. In war we find a good defense is better then a well planned attack. We also find we shouldn’t spread our selves to thin. In the movie brave heart it is known you can be out numbered in battle but with cause anything is possible. In Vietnam we lost face in why we were even fighting we lost because of no support from America and no real understand why we fought the war. There is a saying I made up which way is up when your in outer space well the only conclusion I had was we always pointed up towards the sun that would be my answer.

55) The bull frog wants to control and buy all photo copies (she made copies of the stuff I put in my file in her office pretty sure she did anyhow also I asked for a copy of my file)

55a) The bull frog wants to battle wormwood mainly because I loose at gambling so much silly me seems like it should be called a donation casino oh well its filled with machines and I always felt people out of the ordinary watched me there and some made me loose making me see the casino as the matrix head quarters I battled it as such with karma stuff and soaked the machines dry and the balance I flip over my papers in spiritual battle but my house and articles cant hold much more its on bear minimum in holding on to the karma I take, so hopefully this page might make things better. Ever since I moved on this island (2 months ago) seems I was forced in moving here due to a gambling loss and couldn’t pay rent but spiritually the mark of the beast forced me to move, they couldn’t handle me being there. God's been planning his wrath on the mainland soon very soon ive been watching and listening looks as if port coquitlam will be hit hard churches included also parts of Vancouver the rest hopefully can be spared his wrath I no ive been fighting Vancouver and people in port with vengeance buying God time to prepare I have allot of fight and my neibours need strength so I may need to place strength for them so I can continue to drain the mainland and the historic setups (place) head quarters here on the island ive been placing strength for now on the mountain in Nanaimo draining my place and placing it there its full where to next hu



1) The bull frog says they will give me a million dollars and all the money in china (seemed to mean it)

1a) The bull frog wants a million dollars it is everyone’s dream its always been mine to have what society offers a house car family and food in the cupboard with a good job well it seems to of overlooked me. And well china well the temptation of turning the country into a religious country and freedom with equal rights like America would take money and lots of it what a task though.

2) The bull frog asked for my penny back then decided to give all my pennies I come in contact with the abilities of leniency to come and go anywhere any how and Canadian tire says also the pennies around me. Society has taken over this rule and gave it to me because I once owned all pennies.

2a) The bull frog stood up for what was right and got hit in the head while walking away found a penny and a voice said free leniency every where I go then the voice wanted the penny back I didn’t no witch one so they said leniency with all pennies and ken said with pennies around me I wont except this rule anymore because it deals with the meek until society can handle it The bull frog collects pennies in a coin collection for my daughter and little chriss he believes they have luck and they teach a child the value of money

3) The bull frog says all people's thoughts to other people go here (graffiti)

3a) The bull frog noticed the purity of expressive art and decided to make a map of America with karma stuff on it.

4) The bull frog say the one that picks up Belmont packages get one million a peace for them (I picked up and collected Belmont packages at one time should start again)

4a) The bull frog says be low man on the cross for the one that stabbed Jesus with a spear to see if he was dead could see again from the blood on the spear for he was blessed by Jesus even after his death. Though it’s a curse Satanists use it has a slight connection to poor and government for the empress hotel is in the capital of BC and also in the slums of Vancouver

5) The bull frog feels once the spirit is bothered by drugs then they will over flow drugs to force its spiritual acceptance (gangs biggest weakness drugs leading to greed and crime)

5a) Drugs like pioti has been used for spiritual practices by the natives and the church except wine as well as booze being done in moderation well in moderation is the key the government decided years ago that if you cant get rid of booze and society wants it might as well control it by selling it and taxing it like the old saying if something isn’t good for you tax it overkill. They are going to legalize some drugs one day soon like Amsterdam. Though the control of booze never undermined the bible it should still be done in moderation try the theory out while driving.

6) The bull frog want to control natural and human involvement of time (the beast always wanted to play with numbers and asked for an extra minute of his life once or twice also said everyone owes him 7% tax for air he also played games with cards and time odd times like 7:28 pm he at times said that his wife was even numbers because of repetition)

6a) The bull frog wants to have a controlled natural choosing life seems if I controlled time revelations couldn’t be altered and in its best order also I wouldn't fear death because I would no when my time is up this to me would be good if I did it good so I collect karma on clocks at 6 pm and am and 12 midnight the bad karma time though 6 pm is the news hour oh well.

7) The bull frog say anybody that puts something in coat check anywhere gets a million dollars I asked how about one thousand dollars and one penny and they accepted (I remember taking my karma stuff in coat check at the casino while this rule was made)

7a) The bull frog likes to take karma stuff with him everywhere he goes especially at the casino or pubs or out of town I tend to be able to take care of business with it, to my satisfactory I also hide karma stuff in different cities

) The bull frog doesn't want people to warn them of science then want permission to come and go instead till the end of time

8a) The bull frog says in the olden day’s science fiction was a common word nowadays in the video stores there is no such section it’s a thing of the past its not if something is possible its when. Science is basically the root of all evil though its part of evolution you have heard of there is no sure thing other then death and taxes well science is another one. Science can be good but generally you shouldn’t play God

9) The bull frog say I can have a thousand dollars for every tree needle in existence china will pay (I remember walking to the casino and the china said this to me in my mind and one day I asked to be paid at the casino desk never ever went there though they always had some lame excuse like a password or something then I said pay the dealers to let me win it overall confused them and they left me alone)

9a) Biblically they say that it is easier for a camel to go in side an eye of an needle then it is for a man to go to heaven and the states made there strongest peace of metal and smallest and sent it to china they sent it back with a hole straight in the middle

10) The bull frog says no going on the cross walk anywhere in the world if you make a member of the historic setups wait (I was in the east end when this women followed me into a pawn shop with Linda and Sheena while making people wait at a crosswalk)

10a) The bull frog says time is of the essence Einstein calculated how long in his life he would of spent grooming himself and he said it was far to wasteful of his precious time to spend around three weeks of his life grooming himself he believed that his time was to important who knows he might have something there we may of lost world war 2

11) The bull frog want to control back tracking (in poco everyone played mind games on me this rule could have at least 70 owners they all played games and used my words against me where I was what I was doing and the old famous my movements of face and body)

11a) The bull frog wants not to say the word back. Only when he extremely needs it



1) The bull frog says they will give all the dimes in Canada or B.C. to Nanaimo after they keep their promises to the churches (this rule started in new west I remember a fella dropped a dime in a pub and said he lost some money and picked it up and said he didn’t no where he went wrong. its connected to the ten commandments, also I found one on a chair once)

1a) The bull frog knows a dime represents inflation because it used to be a dime for a phone call now a quarter

2) The bull frog wants a six o'clock auction so they can buy my saw dust. Opening bid starts at one trillion and one penny I ask if it. Should go up or down they suggest up and bid a dime. (this is my only rule I made up I bought a can of sawdust for 20 dollars and was ripped of still have it actually after 4 years, it kept me occupied on the streets when I was homeless, I never understood why the voices only went under 1,000 when the price was to start at one trillion and one penny I believe it was because of the penny)


3) The bull frog wants the privilege to purify my pennies (purity ya purity well to me its the 144,000 virgins with the mark of the lamb but witchcraft deals with it to its really the alpha and the omega the beginning and the end first thing made and last ect but the voices always wanted to purify everything in my house they over whelmed me, so I centered pennies to get rid of it they ran out of purity eventually now that I moved they are starting back up but up above is on bare minimum and below is starting to beg for it same with faith and karma I see mostly empty spiritual boxes above the planet that I try to fill)

3a) if any money is good its pennies it’s the least of all currency and it buys nothing but everything though is mainly thrown or donated or used in coin collections

4) The bull frog wants to control cement around me to replace the faith of what they owe on small things that they need to keep their promises on, probably because they want to control the cements essences on all sky trains/ I would of been rich if I sold the cement to the sky train which does circles around Burnaby new west and Vancouver (this rule however never was a big hit it never maintained much. I use to lift the spiritual properties of houses businesses ect but in the last few years I found monuments or huge concrete fixtures or bridges gates ect and malls were best because the forces would control the small things, I even spent a few hours lifting high-rises in Vancouver know to be used against me)

4a) cement is formed from rock and actually grown over a thousand years it is said Jesus is a rock in a song and a saying I remember is they asked Jesus if they should stone a women for I think adultery and he said for those of you that has not committed sin cast the first stone, I also collect them from beaches I call them white robes


5) The bull frog promises to turn river view hospital upside down and every building on it to solve all the hospitals problems upon every place like Riverview in the world they say till the end of time but I say (or keep Riverview properly funded for 20 more years upon every other place like it) 3 years later added note (seems they talk big but don't have the extra funds to support people but they are willing and able to keep their word)(they don’t like this rule now)(I presume they became afraid of me once I moved on the property so they tried to control the situation)

5a) In Riverview (a mental health hospital like a small town) if you live there its there small world I had hoped to center it towards all places like it, I did everything I could to get rid of the bad karma there but evil is strong)

6) The bull frog wants to control everything leaving north America and south America and in return to Europe etc they will give all the money and treasures in all of America to them, they promise this to the end of time, though they better not mean my dimes and I'll try to except instead of Europe (they don't seem to like this rule anymore I added it for you no prob)(I don’t no why they don’t like this rule after all with all these rules of mine I have the money now in the world actually I gave all bills to an angel of sorts, there probably attack him now as we speak to get the money)((the angel says naughty) to me too for righting this but he accepts me)

6a) The bull frog remembers 9 11 as it was the start of a holly war would love to see an end to war and drugs and crime

7) The bull frog will replace all faith on all garbage around the world before river view gets considerably down sized or else they are going to all sell their bikes (they want me to add they don't like this rule anymore)(I am starting to collect as I am forced to take strength from cars I prefer bikes)(this rule applies because of the garbage thrown away in a few cities)

7a) The bull frog doesn’t believe in taking from Mother Nature so in the heat of the battle tries to make up for it

) The bull frog wants to control stigma in society globally preferred so they can decipher where their promises are, the question remains can we trust them they say please let us or they will attack till the end of time then along the way they will control stigma (I added for you that they don't like any of these rules anymore, perhaps they are to pure, they say there board of rules)

a) The bull frog has never liked the stigma in society to much laughter at others expense isn’t good. There are some mean people in this world and a place without stigma where everyone’s equal is but a dream upon humanity

9) The bull frog says they will give a million dollars to all people in 2 years for every question they can not answer threw out the world when asked how they say they control all businesses in the world (they are broke over this rule know and disregard the rule)(people lately attack so they can be heard to the point of even getting condemned, they thought they were intelligent enough to answer all questions they cant even answer most times, they never expected the unexpected I must remember they are suppose to answer not others for them)

9a) The bull frog says there are some websites and government computers that can answer most all questions thrown at them, if this page is true and as interesting as I think they monitor this site and copy it. They need to know to stay up with the times.

10) The bull frog wants to give leniency for all the cups I run across to come and go anywhere in the world (an old saying is your cup half full or half empty and I added one may it be over flowed if it runnith empty, it's been overflowed and know it's empty know who will over flow it.)(I take my coffee cups to pubs and out and about in the car and when I go for walks)(I also give them strength in karma while centering them, i am big on coffee)

10a) The bull frog likes star bucks the most once WTO (world trade organization) was in Seattle and there was a riot the one thing I remember the most was star bucks being ransacked so I associated it with equality and freedom later

11) The bull frog will give a million dollars to each person that comes in using the password rat. (I suppose it's a cliché they don't own rats or they would be broke, I hope they don't move to India where rats are treated like God's)(Who ratted who out)

11a) Sorry there is only one password and that is paycheck but they tried I admire James bond movies and no that undercover agents are needed to control crime there are to be in society in one form or another always (while there is crime)

12) The bull frog says they can't handle people moving in the world because there to evil so they say no one's allowed to move (how do they walk transport from the living room to get a bite to eat)(they were a big part but mainly the beast in making me move perhaps they are looking the opposite now)

12a) The bull frog says he’s moved away from some close friends and made it a small world by not contacting most while on the mainland

13) The bull frog says they want to control everything written about them except me and the government they say they will purify writings and give faith to it (there goes history we so wanted to now and teach are children the famous things these people accomplished)(they now condemn anyone excepting there rules they cant reach every computer in the world there on information over load on this rule)

13a) the bull frog says sorry this is my rule now you didn’t like it oh well. gossip something everyone does while having a beer or with a few friends most try to be collective and somewhat responsible about it though some take ones words and bend and twist them up to suit there needs and those darn curses out there mind games ect. In the law they have a saying the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth so help you god well part of a truth is considered lying because you are hiding facts. We all judge others in are daily living like you might be judging me reading this but one thing I’ve learned is being open minded is good and quietness can be the worst situation you could ever run across do you want to know last about life, or fear the unknown?

14) The bull frog says they are going to control time loops in the world and give them everywhere (I heard this at the pub by the casino before I lost $500, I suppose it's an important rule, they wish the rule didn't exist)

14a) The bull frog believes the future tellers of this world like nastrodmis there predictions shouldn’t be altered from evil beings to serve there purpose not that most can though they can take longer then expected to the simple future tellers side tracking out of danger.

15) The bull frog wants to think only evil has permission that when they promise or tell the truth they are actually only helping people (well evil should have an extra leniency more then good I guess not more till they can prove it does good)(usually evil is like a pet they fetch something good and it is judged thoroughly till the good except it for themselves at times evil wants to play with it to see if they can make it suit them but until it becomes strong in force ect evil just diminishes it and twists it up to nothing that can be used till a later date)

15a) The bull frog wants to control evil by looking pure like I tried to stretch as far as I could in outer space forcing the matrix with the help of God to only accept one promise never need and only want after judgment day. Evil is the opposite of all good they lie never tell the truth break every promise as that is not good and basically they never have a nice day or good day they live in pain everyday for that isn’t good, to be evil one must except to be evil and its morality or virtues

16) The bull frog says they will give a million dollars to all businesses in poco if they can control all metal globally when asked if they are having difficulties they say none (they need there money elsewhere like helping people why do they have so much money after all I heard there only historic setups)(they owed one business and I heard more too but they couldn’t pay so tried to get others to like me. this is probably one way of controlling all businesses. they say this rule sucks

16a) The bull frog says metal is the matrix no machine is made without metal to control all metal one would control the matrix the historic setups biggest fear

17) The bull frog says if they ever can't handle the pressure on anything they are lying (sounds to me they say they can't handle the pressure of some of these rules I guess they are lying, they like there rules, I can only take them for there word now, and know they wish this rule didn't exist I get it they are lying)

17a) The bull frog knows your not a man in life if you cant stand on your on two feet so no complaining except blame from others even when they cant it makes you a stronger person to never say please you tend to do it on your own, but don’t forget your manners

1) The bull frog wants to control everything in the P.N.E. (they seemed to hover over the play land part probably because lots of people went there and because of the horse races)

1a) The bull frog would love to win occasionally at the horse races but its like a donation I never really win, i am doomed to loose so I try to control the situation by taking karma from TV’s and machines ect long process though but it works

19) The bull frog doesn't do things that are needed and except all negativity (lies nothing but lies this is basically a prayer because it’s forced on them they cry in pain on the island constantly)(they always take what they need and I take it back)

19a) The bull frog hears the prayers of ancient so to people thus colliding with answering them to much at one time so I don’t answer needs with voices and there is an old rule take negativity and mend it to heal it till it is good that is the true way of the saints

20) The bull frog wants all humans to bow down to them (they among the beast want greed and power over others to be masters of people)(to bow down is usually a sign of weakness I wonder how they like the beast know since they all have to bow to him on his rule wait its my rule now oh well)

20a) The bull frog would like to be accepted in life I don’t like to be the center of attention but mabby famous or political I couldn’t be a pastor don’t now enough about the bible and don’t like reading. But to be normal that would be cool the norms well it passed me by because there is no cure for my illness I only want what society offers.

21) The bull frog says no pain in houses or businesses anywhere (they now say years later except me and decide they no longer like this rule and want to start war)

21a) pain is a mother nature thing if you get burnt you learn not to burn yourself it teaches you to be cautious among other things material things in nature seem to have dampened this pain threshold to a minimum even towards animals I remember the a war movie where a guy said a bird can sit at a bow of a boat and freeze without feeling sorrow for itself

22) The bull frog says no bikes near government places (probably because they want to have a karma pull to stay out of government places I guess this rule doesn’t apply in communist countries as there government doesn’t have coffee much)

22a) The bull frog says no bikes near government places because I own them no just kidding though I have made claim to them in most ways a number one scooter is out in the drive way controls all motorized hopeful bikes same with the car that we might sell soon for 1,200 - 1,500 soon, I collect karma bikes everywhere I go, instead of taking from cars which The historic setups told me to do. ferries are still controlled (so far) all leaning towards my metal paper clips if I were a millionaire I would buy a paper clip factory I only have 5-6 containers, what I would do with unlimited paper clips no more worm wood, considering this there is no need for bikes outside government buildings hope I don’t loose a paper clip poor city already lost some as I place them outside hidden but tigger found them and knocked them over, ill get what I can find. I have all different sizes and colors of paper clips here in Ladysmith 49th parallel this is so far being connected to borders globally with my pictures this is a double whammy pure form holly cow sorry my society rule book and this rule book as well as the bibles collided with the governments (the one I don’t have (like law books)) the voices say the question you should be asking yourself is do you need to get paper clips or law books because you cant control paper clips without law books. strange voices mabby i am the exception I say buy a copy of my art work and photo copy it I sell them for two million a peace no kidding 2 dollars, (when I sell them again) at times I give them away. Though I need a printer to photo copy this page I can’t seem to appreciate a local store anywhere even this printer of my ex's. (To much bad karma) and a scanner well not just to add the picture to my site if I learned how.

23) The bull frog says they don't give or take karma (they get others to do it for them out of force and fear and luck)

23a) The bull frog used to never take or give karma except for others souls he stretched it until wormwood was to close then found to gamble all that was left for him was bad karma and today the Gods stretch to existence and back succeeding in the organization of keeping karma for only good not ones with the mark of the beast or the matrix if we can handle that we only want things to be natural mabby more to maintain the balance karma is but a God given and holy spirit basically trinity privilege

24) The bull frog wants words in certain order in conversation and in writings (words can be very influential and most that these rules originated from choosing there words carefully such as witchcraft or mind games twisting there words and others to suit there needs or desires)

24a) The bull frog believes the dictionary is like science in some ways its the root of all evil kind of like knowledge I remember in planet of the apes its not evil unless its defined by what actions you take that makes it good or evil even altering things can cause evil.

25) The bull frog wants to control between truth and lies perhaps they should control lies first when asked they say they can't that's why the rule (opposites of good are being diminished as you read because they want both sides of the realm to teach evil what both sides of the realm are thus the rule)

25a) The bull frog says evil likes biting off more then they can chew to cause caous but if you consider every word in the dictionary has an angel behind it then one opposite must be in full control where some words have a go between or perhaps several connections the theory still holds

26) The bull frog will give away all their houses to charity every time they ask for proof and the equivalence for every piece of proof after (only if this were law they would live on the streets and see what addiction is like)

26a) The bull frog says proof is a big word it leads to forced promises leading one or several to get stronger on promises by making them like this one in total faith is secret you cant make promises on it so it then is an empty promise it is also said don’t give your pearls to swine for they will chew it up and spit it out this rule isn’t empty if favor of promises cant perform




1) The bull frog wants to control all the crackings in the world (dope/crazy's/cracks/sex/(human body) stuff off centered (he doesn’t like his rules now)(Vancouver says except the leniency one)

1a) The bull frog says a world without illnesses would be a centered world not to say the ill shouldn’t survive but be cured of ailment normally or with pills have a coffee it does wanders (in Seattle)

2) The bull frog wants to control all physical and mental games in life (they don’t like games played on them so I guess they don’t play multi player games)

2a) The bull frog wants the secret of the two to belong to the Holy Spirit for he is apart of the trinity he believes it belongs to the best teacher

3) The bull frog says he doesn't want to take karma for rules in life because rules don't bother him he figures he can live off this (ken never prepared for this rule once a need arose this rule crashed and burned)

3a) the bull frog wants one day to get away from collecting bad karma but he doesn’t want evil to have it eighther

4) The bull frog says he will give me a million and one times the faith from my writings and paper I say a thousand and one he says what ever (ken always thought I was stupid writing on paper same with most at new view though they are reminders of my life)

4a) The bull frog says one thousand is a better number then the common one million and add a one to confuse matters more and you have little faith it also leads to not being greedy.

5) The bull frog says my tickets control all other tickets and remotes (ken never liked me flipping over my lottery tickets it bothered him probably same with others at the place (drop in center) and new view)

5a) The bull frog says he collects all his lottery tickets to remind him of karma numbers so I can write a better concept of time then I gave a pastor at the Lutheran church in port coquitlam I also gave him a bible as well as other pastors bibles I believe now in giving authority figures and friends and family articles of faith so they have a fighting chance in these times of judgment and tribulation since there is so much neighbor hood hatred and disrespect for each other, when I am on buses no one talks its a rule excepted out of respect for others kind of sad actually I like to speak my mind because I don’t like to bottle up my feelings. Everyone likes gossip but they like to overhear it and not be involved at times only because the pressures too much.

6) The bull frog supplies faith to the impossible throughout existence and spirituality (i am sort of happy this one is next, evils biggest quality and practicing devotion is stupidity, though it is probably the opposite of doing the intelligent thing they even go as far as starting things and promises they now they cant finish or succeed in, just so they can be heard in society, this is also somewhat a spiritual quality as well the line above is the intelligence of understanding evolution where the middle is to become a government official such as an undercover cop. the separation of time energy and mother nature as well as evolution in basic fact why I like this rule next.

6a) this is an actual spiritual and reality law a law of the universe the only thing I can do in faith is support it by giving my control or gifts of it to evolution or places like mother nature or time and energy but to claim it for yourself is utter quietness of the know level, level 8 or so. (I only use the word energy because of people like Einstein)

7) The bull frog says it wants to control all holidays (all holidays are a haven for witches wherever people collect together there can be spiritual practices)

7a) The bull frog says he likes to celebrate holidays more and more each year he likes to celebrate it with family but finds it difficult to organize and please everyone

) The bull frog says it controls the phrase why does it matter (some people like ken want to control every situation but sometimes one must have boundaries)

a) The bull frog says everything matters to some and not others so to understand to be sympathetic one might look within words to understand something about ones problems to help others a famous psychiatrist once said all problems stem from a persons childhood

9) The bull frog says all rules and laws are made to be broken and he controls everything dealing with it (ken is funny at times he does brake rules and can’t handle these ones)

9a) The bull frog wants to control all rules on evil with this page that’s why the negative rule before the positive one a control of negativity, in mathematics one positive and one negative equals negative

10) The bull frog says it needs to be everywhere rules don't apply (only likes land on the planet)(he travels from town to town really in reality he is a cool guy I don’t no why his spirit bothered me so)

10a) The bull frog says he needs to move at times spiritually forced and has to start over when I lived in poco I felt the town was made for a reason to spread distance from my home town because a town was to turn evil as was foretold so I separated from family members and my wife in the process of the move I hope it was worth it, it doesn’t seem to be

11) The bull frog says it will give me all the tobacco I need in life and everyone in mental health any where in the world (the impossible on this page is what evil feeds on I only show to some a possible, ken doesn’t smoke but respects those that do and probably hopes they could be cheap enough for everyone)

11a) The bull frog says all he looks forward each day is a cigarette and a cup of coffee I don’t ask for much else other then that in my life

12) The bull frog says it and everyone hooked up with mental health will each repay me a 1,000 times my gambling losses for all time and if someone doesn't he will pay there share (also their losses)(Pam my retired worker made me loose at gambling with her chosen words and the beast. This was cursed on me so much that the voices of my friends and family started making me loose. its got to a point I cant fight it all I can stand on is if I had no bad karma id have none at all, as well as its only donations when I gamble though I have taken lots of karma but so far only got the casinos angry)

12a) The bull frog is starting to use 6 am and 6pm and 12 and 23 minutes after an hour to get payment for these rules amongst other things the voices say, I tell them to pay me at my mailbox and we will set up a meeting once they ask for help it is said a man can live very wealthy and poor spiritually you though cant take your wealth with you after you die

13) The bull frog wants to control lust and hate and if anyone gets in his way even in any club house (new view) he will kill them or condemn them (ken is a wanta be historic setups member really, and would prefer to stay away from lust and makes enemies but doesn’t fight much)

13a) The bull frog
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Posted: 06-10-08 23:21pm

wow. You really took some time to write that post.
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Posted: 09-05-08 01:03am

consider being "diagnosed" shizophrenic a blessing, i have no confidence to the point of not caring what happens anymore, the voice has helped me what to say, to ge out of trouble, where to go where, opened my eyes to the truth! i dont understand why would anyone truly suffer from schizophrenia, but sadly i to understand why suicide rate is high is consideration, they know too much and its killing them especially since no one else around them understands or cares? my opinion.
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