Hi,
I'm a 20 year old male from england.
I live alone with 4 cats.
Due to reasons I cannot discuss I had to leave home when I was 17. All of which I feel has nothing to do with this.
Over the past few months (relating to the past few years) I've managed to get myself into around £8000 worth of debt.
I've been seeing CAB for this and they are helping me.
However in November 2008 I went of work sick for around 4-5 months. I returned to work in March on and off and finally went back to work at the end of March after having some b12 injections.
I've been feeling fine for the past 3 months and now I'm ill again.
Work have given me 2 written 1st warnings and the manager told me this is my last chance to sort my health out. Like to say I havent been doing any thing. Spite the regular telephone calls to the Dr, visits and hospital appoitments.
Over the past few weeks I've had all this getting on top of me and have often wondered about suicide.
When I'm around my family I seem really happy and enjoy my life.
But when I'm home and on my own I feel really sad and unhappy and like suicide is my only option.
The only reason I dont try to commit suicide is because I love my cats to much to leave them without me.
Could I be depressed? I feel I cant talk to my mum about it because she has been depressed and I cannot find the right words.
I want to see a Dr but I don't know how to word it without bottling up and not talking.
