I was drugged and raped whilst unconscious when traveling alone last year. I can recall everything prior to falling unconscious, once during (somewhat blurry and brief), and can remember afterwards when I wake to find him next to me still. I haven't told anyone except one friend, and push it to the back of my mind most of the time, not really thinking about it unless I need to. I do cry and get upset when I think or need to talk about it but as I don't think about it and try to forget it happened, I get on with my life as usual most of the time. I had to fly to the next country I was visiting the next day so haven't returned since, but I have the trial in a few months and I am wondering how I am going to cope being there in court and needing to talk about it all again, especially as I will be by myself.

Is it possible that I have gotten over it and won't need therapy? I'm wondering if it is healthy for me to just keep distracting myself and forgetting it, as I don't want it to build up inside me and then to find it has affected me or I break down in the future.