I met this young lady about 6 years ao I was a freshman in high school but did not find her very attractive. As we became friends in the 10th grade I began to feel something for her and so did she. At the time she was with a guy named adrian that apparently she didnt like that much because of his addictions to cocaine and pot. We began to talk more and more and after she broke up , roughly 2 months later, we got back together. We had a lot of problems through out our realationship jealousy was a big one from my part because I always thought she might be cheating on me. This all came from a particular time about a year after we got together she took off one day with this same guy adrian to his house to ditch school and she thought I wouldnt find out. Well after 4 and a half years now about to be 21 we were scheduled to get married on nov 07 , 2009 my dad had just recently purchased a house that was going to be rented out to us and was going to rent it out to us fully furnished. I saw her that she was more into getting married than I was her family loved the idea of us getting married and so did mine everything was going great. In late dec of 2008 her family and I took a road trip down to mexico mazatlan to visit some of her family were she introduce me to everyone there as her soon to be husband. We stayed there for 2 weeeks and came back home where we began fighting again. A week later I began acting jealous again and she said she was fed up with it and left me on a thursaday. I felt sad that she broke up with me but had a feeling she just needed time so I took of to visit family in mexico for another two weeks. I was suppose to go home on a tuesday but the sunday before that tuesday I get a call from my sister telling me that My x girlfriend at 20 years of age ran away from home with a guy by the name of adrian her x boyfriend. Her family was shocked and didnt know what to do or say to me after all we went through she did that to me without even giving me a explanation. I havent talk to her or seen her since that thursday she left me about 2 months ago and I havent stopped thinking of the love of my life that left me for a nobody. The guys family sells drugs so they are ok with money I dont know if it was for the money I mean were ok as well but not like them that could spend 600 at the mall every week. But I dont know what happened but I want her back. I also got so desperate about a month ago I went to a tarot reader that said she would bring her back to me for 300 dollars. a month and a half later i havent even received or had any contact with my x whats so ever. She is now asking 300 more for I dont know and I am staring to think she wants me to pay her carpayment. I just lost faith in this any that lady brought me no results and got me broke so now I dont no what else to do I love her with all my heart. And I cant handle not being without her even though she hasnt contacted me in 2 months please what can I do to get rid of this I really can take te sadness of crying every night to sleep and waking up with the feeling that I shouldnt be on this earth.