i am not always a patient person but lately my anger has become severe.

when my temper flares, my heart beats faster and i feel like i couldnt breathe. i get obsessed with the thing that angers me and i couldnt let it go. my hands start shaking and thats when ill start bawling. this is becoming out of hand because im starting to get angry really fast over small useless things. my throat gets stuck, i feel like i cudnt breathe, i feel lightheaded, i get obsessed.. its tiring to be living like this.

ive read in the internet that the most effective way to calm down is by counting bla bla but how do u expect to count when in ur head, u cudnt think of anything else but to just break or hurt or destroy everything else around u? ive tried and it doesnt work. i stil get obsessed and i cant calm down. even thinking of this, makes my heart beat faster.

i need help. pls, any suggestion?